misunderstood

This is confusing, and scary as well.

Happened many times

Some had caused severe misunderstanding

Which is too late to be corrected

What being said, or being typed or expressed

has been misinterpreted the other way around

not once,

and not misinterpreted positively,

some had bring weeks of sadness and eternal regrets,

and i am scared of another misunderstanding,

i can just choose not to bother,

but i can't stand another regret,

so,

when the instinct tells me that i am being misunderstood,

i' ll try my best to correct.

whether you like it or not

i feel that i have to.

so, for all the negative interpretations,

and you can't change the perspective,

please confront with open heart

thank you





 

kecil hati

kalaulah ade matematik untuk hati,
ditambah tolak jumlah rasa kecil hati,
sudah pasti aku kini tiada hati lagi...

tetapi,

aku juga tidak pandai menjaga hati,
dalam tak sengaja,sering mengguris hati.

jika itu disedari,
layakkah aku berkecil hati lagi?

ada lagi,

bila ada rasa kecil hati,
sudahkah ku lupa pada ilahi?
memperkecilkanNYA setiap kali,
membelakangkamNYA...
melupakanNYA...

berkali kali.

maka siapa yang layak kecil hati?

kalau diikutkan,terang sekali ilahi,

jadi berhentilah berkecil hati,

jangan pentingkan hati sendiri,

kerana hati kita milik ilahi,

hidup kita juga untuk ilahi,

fokus kepada tujuan hidup hakiki,

insyaallah,

kita tidak berkecil hati.

october.november.december 2012

Saturday, 3rd November, 12:37 am

Hey, i am back from the animal friendly Australia. It was (thinking of one word that can describe everything) just nice (still couldn't find a word) .

[Unpack-done ; laundry - done ; souvenir - 60% ; post trip payments - 70% ; work - okay, missing Melbourne - still; keeping up with loved ones - ongoing]--will write about it later.

Almost 10 days away, and when i got back, there were more than 10 invitations on my table. Put them aside -- will think about it later, one at a time.

And, now it s time. sorting, thinking, arranging, justifying.

October, November, and December 2012- Months of dearest people in my life. May ALLAH bless all of you. My du'a is with you, and just so you know, i feel really bad for not being there on your special occasion.

Last night, on my way home with my dearest friend;and i was sorting, thinking , arranging, justifying  November, December 2012 when the radio started playing all the songs in past... then i told her

"Sometimes i wish we can turn back time, because i feel that we are moving too fast"

                                          p/s : everybody's changing ~ by shifaa =P

Thank you

Date : 14th September 2012
Time : 1:14 pm
Location : Stor

Finally i have the time for blogging.

It s always feels right to read and update blog when you are alone; and not using your android.

(I have less than 2 hours then to get back to work)

Lately,  i always got carried away mostly in my conversations. Having too much ideas, dreams, opinions and stuff  makes me become more frank and outspoken. I  really did speak my mind despite of their age, social status or whatsoever.

But somehow, when i got carried away, i tend to make mistakes and most of the time i  missed out certain points.

*  *  *

" a true friend is the one who you can blurt out all the stupid and emotional thingy, ideas and opinions, and yet they don't judge, and after you realized how silly you have been, you just don't feel embarrassed with them"

I have many of them. Thank you

Time : 1.32pm

jutaan cinta

di kala ramai,
tersusun berdiri,
bersentuhan di sisi,
menghadap ilahi,

ku khayal sendiri,
kumandang kalamnya kubiar pergi,
mendengarnya lalai,
apatah lagi cuba mengerti,
usah bicara tentang menghayati

sedetik ku sedar kembali,
setelah semakin dekat lagi,
ketika tanah menyentuh dahi,
aku minta maaf lagi,

di saat ini,
ketika aku baru hayati,
hati cuba komunikasi,
agar termakbul pintaan hati,
ada berjuta juga dahi di bumi,
menyerah diri membasahi bumi,

dan aku?
mampukah aku menandingi,
merebut cintamu dari berjuta dahi,
yang menyerah diri saban hari,

mahukan kau mendengar pintaan hati,
walaupun merintih jarang sekali,
di saat kau dicintai berjuta lagi,

dan aku lalai lagi

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Jeju to Seoul

" Oh, ustaz biasa pergi Turki ya? Alhamdulillah, Turki itu bumi berkat. Banyak makam sahabat dan orang soleh di sana" kata seorang kenalan.
" Oh ustaz biasa pergi Turki ya? Mesti seronok. Turki tu cantik. Permandangannya indah tak terkata." komen seorang kenalan lagi.
" Oh ustaz biasa pergi Turki ya? Bagus tu, Turki ni banyak peluang perniagaan. Boleh pertimbangkan bisnes kain lace, barang kulit, tudung, sutera dan kristal. "aju seorang kawan lagi.
" Oh ustaz biasa pergi Turki ya?Hehe... Turki tu perempuan dia lawa-lawa ustaz. Lembut pula tu, tak macam Arab," usik seorang kawan lagi

Subjeknya sama iaitu Turki, tetapi ulasan semua berbeza-beza...Itulah yang dikatakan 'siapa kamu menentukan cara kamu melihat.' Kesannya pula ialah ' Cara kamu melihat menentukan apa yang kamu dapat'

Secangkir Teh Pengubat Letih by Hasrizal Abdul Jamil. 


It's a book that i've read recently that gave me a different perspective about travelling.
 
Anyway, I just got back from Incheon, Seoul, South Korea last night. Two words to describe our vacation ;

AWESOME

...

and

...

 

LEGEND

...

...

...

wait for it

...

...

...

...

...

wait for it

...

...

DARY !!!

Ju-sang Jeo Li Cliff

We went to Jeju Island for almost 4 days before heading to Seoul. There's so many to share that i can even write a book! I ll start with those two words to describe our vacation. InsyaALLAH when i have time, i ll share the ups and downs of our journey in South Korea.


Apart from fridge magnets, key chains, post cards, T-shirts and LOADS OF PICTURES. There are lots of lesson learnt too. One of them is that their punctuality and efficiency. So, i shall try to be punctual and efficient as much as i can like the Koreans.

Suku Abad Quarter a Century

Suku abad baru berlalu,
Hidup seabad ku tak rasa berlaku,
Separuh abad lagi, jika panjang nafasku,

Andai itu tempoh hayatku,
Sepertiga sudah dimakan waktu,
Hembusan nafasku, tak terkira beribu,

Suku abad sudah di belakangku,
Ya ALLAH ampunkan setelahku,

Zalim pada rahim yang ku tumpang itu,
dan pada pelengkap pemilik rahim itu,
serta yang berkongsi rahim denganku,
tidak lupa pada kitab tuaku,
dan mereka yang senasab denganku,

Ampuni aku juga, keranaku,

menzalimi perantara rezekiku,
zalim pada sahabat dan temanku,
juga yang bermukim dengan ku,
dan yang bermastautin dengan ku

Yang pasti,
aku zalim pada MU.

Itu yang berlaku,
Ampuni aku.

Suku abad sudah berlalu
Namun sukar untukku membalas cintaMU,
Zalim pada diriku, itulah yang berlaku,
bantulah aku mencintaiMU,

Agar hidupku tidak dimakan waktu.
Kerana suku abad telah berlalu.

Dan aku tak tahu bila akhirnya waktu

Dulu, Kini, Seterusnya?

Dulu,
Tiada stesen radio Islam,
Yang ada pun sungguh malap dan suram,

Dulu,
Lagu nasyid diputar sebelum waktu asar,
Biar azan berkumandang, lagu terus diputar,

Dulu, 
Drama dan filem, berhijab tiada satu,
Yang ada pun sehari selepas Rabu,
Cuma Forum Perdana di tv 1.

Hari ini,
Forum Perdana tidak lagi sendiri,
Siaran santapan rohani, ada sepanjang hari!

Stesen IKIM.fm  tidak sugul lagi,
Demi laungan azan, lagu HOT.fm terus dihenti,

Hari ini, 
Hijab di drama tidak lagi janggal,
Mereka berani berhijab kekal,
menjaga wudhu' agar tak batal,

Hari ini juga, aku perhati,
Baik pengacara mahupun artis realiti,
Tetap, Assalamualaikum dimulai,

Hari ini,
aku yakin, suatu hari, kita akan gemilang lagi,

Seterusnya?

Janganlah berputus asa dalam berdakwah,
apatah lagi, tiada yang berubah,
hidayah itu milik ALLAH,
yang penting kita dah laksanakan perintah,

Marilah kita kuatkan hati,
Menjadi khalifah di bumi ini,
Setiap kita ialah daie,

Seterusnya lagi,
aku yakin, suatu hari, kita akan gemilang lagi,

Dedicated to myself. 

A walk not to remember

I ve been hopeful for that day,
For all of us shall be gay,

Like a child with a new toy,
And a dad with a new boy,
As coming days shall be filled with joy,

I can't wait

But it was just a short ray,
As the gay don't really stay,
It was only halfway,
As the ship sailed away,

What am I supposed to say?
When I don't really know the way,
Though they never really say,
I can feel the dismay,
Sorry for making us astray,

That day,
I was at the bay,
feeling that ship sailed away,
Seeing it sinks,i never may,
Only my heart sinks,i can say,
For now at the bay I just stay,

In silence, the tears run dry,
Husnuzhon I shall try,
To the heart,I ll just lie,
To myself faking a smile,
For they don't know why I cry.

Being hopeful,i shall try,
Only one knows why I cry.

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The Run

It's the run,

Which i decide,

That i will run ahead,

Leaving the footsteps behind,

With no regret,

i decide not looking back,

and hoping that the steps behind will catch up,

and i shall not wait

if the steps didn't catch up,

if the steps ever catch up,

It's the run,

When everything changed,

I will run ahead,

Thank you ALLAH, for making it easy for me. Syukran

Okayyyyyyyy...what i like about run, marathon, half marathon is that:

1) Usually the flag off time will be as early as 6 am, so for Muslims, we can grab this opportunity to do Qiamullail! We have to wake up early, and why not spend some time intimately with ALLAH?

2) One time, we have to gather at Bukit Jalil before 6 am, so i went out as early as 5 am, and as i drive out, i saw one makcik setting up a table and a canopy to sell nasi lemak. ( i never realize that she starts her day as early as that)

3) You will get the chance to run on the highways, and breathe the fresh air instead of asap kereta!

4) You'll finish the run at least by 9 am (for beginners like me) and it not like aargh, it's already the end of the day. You can still come back home and have breakfast, read newspaper, catching up and enjoy weekend morning with your loved ones.

I just love the quite and stillness of morning!

p/s: my first post for this year!