tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-44513205987176420732024-03-05T18:57:18.633-08:00Balderash~just for the record, so that nothing left unwritten~shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.comBlogger64125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-49625202824228488392022-10-24T12:03:00.001-07:002022-10-24T12:03:58.692-07:00Movie Review (Different perspective) - Nice View 2022So I saw few friends in the same industry (business owners) share a review about this new movie Nice View 2022<div><br></div><div>Most of them wrote that it s an inspiring movie for most business owners who are facing challenges in this difficult times. </div><div><br></div><div>This time I thought it s the best genre for both me and izzat to watch, since tomorrow is school holiday so no need to rush in the morning.</div><div><br></div><div>Just finished watching them, and I cried so hard that my face swell, people might think I had a fight tomorrow. </div><div><br></div><div>Well as for synopsis, (you can Google later). I thought that I can relate most to the main character, jing hou as he is the one who face the ordeals and all. Unfortunately, no I can't relate to him. We are totally not in the same boat. I totally can not relate. He is actually a small business owner who provide phone repairing service. However, he was desperate to get some amount of money to fund his sister's operation. So he decide to venture into a new business. </div><div><br></div><div>Why I cried so hard is that, I don't see myself in him, but what I felt was I see myself in the antagonist character. Well if you are in business, usually we are a risk taker, braver than anyone else, but usually we calculate and assess the risk and find other less riskier solutions. Somehow I felt that there must other ways to find some money to fund his sister's operation. </div><div><br></div><div>What hit me was, when he was unable to pay rent for his new factory for two months, and the landlord say, " everyone has their own problem, by not paying rent I too shall face so many problem, have you considered my problem too???!!"</div><div><br></div><div>That's when it hit me. Sometimes I got so angry, that I always muttered this kind of phrases in my own daily monologue. Well some of the phrases sounds like this " yeah, yeah, so you have a problem and the whole world must help you, such and entitled person!"</div><div><br></div><div>Sounds bad huh</div><div><br></div><div>Well, I ve seen a number of people who make decisions like Jing Hou. Well I don't know the details as in the reason and on. And also I ve seen some people that I know being accused as scammer too (but I don't investigate further). Well maybe they are in their desperate times. We never know. </div><div><br></div><div>I was reflecting, let say Jing Hou is my friend , but maybe not my best ones.I might not lend my money. </div><div><br></div><div>Sometimes I forget that people from different backgrounds make different business judgements. Sometimes I felt angry if they are close and important person to me. </div><div><br></div><div>And some people, they just keep on cycling the bicycle, even when the bicycle is broken, and what they need is to stop and repair the bicycle first (it s an analogy). Well I can't stop the bicycle, because I am cycling mine too, and no I can't yell them and ask them to stop. It's their bicycle and their track. The most that I can do is to keep an eye on them, and if they fall down, I can give them a ride. (Sometimes syaitan whisper to me ' but who s going to keep an eye on you???)</div><div><br></div><div>Astaghfirullahalazim</div><div><br></div><div>I felt so bad after watching this movie. It made me ponder, that sometimes Allah grant you health and money, and time , so when you lend them to others and they still can not afford to pay back (eventhough, you felt that when there is a will there is a way, you just always play victim), just give them more time and be kind, as long as you still can manage yours. </div><div><br></div><div>Another part of the movie that made me cried so hard, is that I never see Jing hao lose his temper towards his sister even at the most stressful time (of course it s a movie). It serves as Reminder to me, that being with children, they are innocent, try your best not to scold them but guide them. Usually I lose my temper when i felt too tired and stressed out (why do we feel that? Well maybe because we are too tired) but why we lose our coolness? Because I forget to feel grateful for what I have during that moment. Not that you can not be angry, but it s how you express your anger. </div><div><br></div><div>Insyaallah it s really like a personal tazkirah to me whatching this movie. Thank God I watch it alone, because I definitely do not share the same relation as others. </div><div><br></div><div>Astaghfirullahalazim, may Allah leads us to the right path and guide us and our children and spouses. Ameen</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div>shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-11601820018259965402022-09-07T11:42:00.001-07:002022-09-07T11:42:10.676-07:00Insyaallah update blog lebih kerapBila dah mula tulis blog, mula lah dok baca post post lama Dari zaman student. Nak tergelak baca. Rasa menyesal juga sbb tak tulis banyak lagi. <div><br></div><div>Banyak kot kisah kisah Yang boleh dikongsi, kisah Zaman uni, kisah travel. </div><div><br></div><div>Sekarang tulis tak heran dah orang baca. Lebih kepada kesihatan otak. Nak jadi macam tun M</div><div><br></div><div>Cuma Tula zaman zaman scammer ni cuak juga. Tgh fikir Cara yg lebih secure. Ke mmg secure dah eh. <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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This year, i planned to make birthday surprises to the one who is new to me, i mean my husband and children.<br />
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To compare, my parents and my siblings and even friends, i knew them longer than my husband and my children<br />
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But usually for birthday surprises, i always be the sidekick who helped the one who planned everything.<br />
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But for my husband, this year i tried to plan a very simple birthday surprise, but end up disaster. It caused miscommunication and brought me to tears. It is not a disaster like a family problem or anything, but the miscommunication is good enough for me to cry. Totally its nobody s mistake. Just that i deal with people that i just knew for less than 10 years. The connection is not secured<br />
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But i tried few other times,<br />
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another birthday surprise for my husband few days later, and anniversary surprise. (Well i think i did quite well as no miscommunication occurred)<br />
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i did not give up<br />
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And now for Umayr birthday, almost same thing happened, i cried, no, actually i m holding back my tears right now.<br />
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luckily i plan another surprise few days later, well hope everything runs smooth and ALLAH bless my effort.<br />
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well i am not a perfectionist, i am okay for flawed cake or anything. The last thing i want is a miscommunication or misunderstood intention<br />
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i really need to let this out, not on FB or IG, so here goes me blogging at work so i can put things into perspective<br />
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some people think that i am confident to confront, and speak out my opinion or anything. But they dont know how many rejections that i already faced, but i just keep on thinking positive. Forget those rejections.<br />
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This time i am so fragile, i cant hold it anymore. Let me pour my heart out here, at my safe place. shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-50323678038117290722020-06-20T00:03:00.001-07:002020-06-20T00:05:06.339-07:00HAJATOkay i have been delaying my post<br />
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i think this is my safe place<br />
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the previous post only viewed once<br />
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okay i would like to pen down my thoughts about my business<br />
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i always feel that it is personal and a secret<br />
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i have a notebook to write down my dreams but always i lost it<br />
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regarding me and my pharmacy<br />
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one thing that i observe is that people are so keen on opening branch of pharmacy and that seems like their yardstick<br />
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well me?<br />
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i think i am so conservative. my concern is the personal touch that i want to maintain<br />
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every story is a secret, every customer complaint is my secret.<br />
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it is not that i dont want to go big, yes i do!<br />
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satu hajat saya, dan saya belum suarakan kepada pemegang saham ialah, saya berdoa untuk majukan syarikat sehingga akhirnya saya boleh wakafkan perniagaan ini untuk ummah, dan menjadi saham saya di akhirat kelak dan tidak menjadi fitnah di kemudian hari.<br />
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ameenshifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-75494916587582028392020-03-04T08:30:00.001-08:002020-03-04T08:30:47.826-08:00Wardah Warded5.3.2020<div>Ward 6D, bed 1</div><div>Hospital Serdang</div><div>00:13 am</div><div>Day 10 of admission</div><div><br></div><div>Rojak rojak la english dan malay</div><div><br></div><div>Buat pertama kali, anak admitted. Ramai tanya kenapa tak masuk private. </div><div><br></div><div>Hari Sabtu 22.2.2020 kot, tarikh pak andak Umayr dan Wardah kahwin, Wardah start demam panas. Nasib bawa ear thermometer, tak sampai sejam asyik periksa saja suhu, tinggi! 38++</div><div><br></div><div>Bagi pcm supp setiap 6 jam, tak kebah. Muntah banyak kali, dan cirit pulak. Gundah gulana hati ini, tak nikmat nak hayati wedding pak andak korang, risau!</div><div><br></div><div>Esoknya sebenarnya plan nak sambung cuti, tapi wardah tak sihat kan, jadi duduk rumah je lah. Tapi masih tak resolved, muntah dan demam kurang,tapi masih lemah, tak main pun dengan Umayr 😢</div><div><br></div><div>Masuk isnin tu, muntah teruk balik, aduh, pergila cari klinik private yang boleh bagi iv drip. Sekali xde, jadi fikir fikir decide pergi serdang. Yelah, kita ni bukan jenis boleh cuti senang.kalau bawa pergi private confirm kena admit, mungkin lah selesa, tapi susah la pasal kerja kan. Kalau hospital kerajaan ni, kalau tak perlu diorang takkan admit. </div><div><br></div><div>Sampai serdang, sekali dr cek spo2 94%, wbc 33, crp 284, demam tak resolved, selera tak improve even dekat observation bay.x-ray pun x cantikðŸ˜</div><div><br></div><div>Akhirnya terpaksalah wardah admitted to ward</div><div><br></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<p dir="ltr">Rasanya dalam bulan July 2018, saya sedang sarat mengandungkan Wardah. Umayr pula kebetulan cuti sekolah. Izzat, kebetulan tiada staff. Saya pula ada seorang staff permanent, dan part timer kebetulan masa tu Ezzah (adik ipar)</p>
<p dir="ltr">Jadi saya bawa la umayr ikut saya ke kedai seperti biasa. Mungkin sebab pregnant, jadi saya sangat letih, masa tu travel jauh lagi. Letih sangat</p>
<p dir="ltr">Balik kerja lebih kurang 10.40pm sampai kajang. Dah mandi, masa solat tu, doa sungguh sungguh kat Allah. "Ya ALLAH, aku penat sangat"</p>
<p dir="ltr">Tiba tiba telefon berdering, belum buka telekung, tengok yang call Umi. Angkat la takut ada urusan penting.. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Umi tanya, kat mana, jawab la kat rumah. Tiba tiba umi kata, esok hantarla umayr rumah umi, shifaa boleh rehat sikit. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Masa tu, Ya Allah, banjir terus. Laju sangat air mata jatuh, tapi cover suara, cakap takpe ke, tapi sebab nak cover nangis, terus cakap okay thank you. Lepas letak telefon, sambung nangis yang teresak esak. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Serius, dah lama x nangis teresak esak.<br>
Izzat masuk bilik terus cuak tgk saya nangis macam tu. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Rupanya adik saya Numan dan ezzah balik kerja, cakap kat umi, kesian pulak tengok shifaa nampak penat sangat, nak handle kedai, jaga umayr yang tengah aktif, mengandung lagi.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Ya ALLAH, bila ingat balik memang sebak . Sebab Allah jawab terus doa. Onthespot. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Terima kasih Allah,<br>
Terima kasih. Numan dan ezzah<br>
Terima kasih umi</p>
<p dir="ltr">Untuk kenangan ini</p>
shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-74217039794033051802019-06-24T07:44:00.001-07:002019-06-24T07:44:59.622-07:00Why not facebook?<p dir="ltr">10.15pm<br>
Desa Cempaka,Nilai</p>
<p dir="ltr">Df ing Wardah while blogging.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Why I choose to write here?</p>
<p dir="ltr">It is because facebook is so open, I don't share so much personal things there. Although I no longer add or approve any new friends since 2014, which means my friends in the list are real one. I still feel facebook is where people have other interest. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Then I decide to share personal photos on instagram. I follow 42 profiles whom are my immediate family, in laws, cousins and close friends and umayrs kindergarten; and only have 36 followers. I do share thoughts there. </p>
<p dir="ltr">But blog is more personal, I feel that no one reads my blog except for those who really wants to read my thoughts. Even my family don't read them. I feel safe here. I don't make it private because just in case,if my time in dunia has ended, I hope that someone can contact my children and husband and give them this link, sebagai kenangan</p>
<p dir="ltr">Okay thats all, now all is raw, no time for editting, have to blog <u>fast</u></p>
shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-63043651504983225372019-06-23T19:23:00.001-07:002019-06-23T19:23:16.503-07:00Wahai Anak Anak<p dir="ltr">Assalamualaikum, </p>
<p dir="ltr">Kenapa saya ambil keputusan untuk menulis semula?</p>
<p dir="ltr">Mungkin suatu hari nanti bila anak anak dah besar, boleh mengenali lebih tentang diri ini.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Ya, parents juga manusia biasa. Saya pun, bukan la sentiasa positif, kuat semangat, tak perlu rasa rendah diri. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Memang ada masa, kita akan rasa DOWN, nak give up, marah, emosi</p>
<p dir="ltr">Itu normal, yang penting bagaimana mengurusnya mengikut kehendak Allah</p>
<p dir="ltr">Saya akan kongsi kisah dan buah fikiran </p>
shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-21053071744029207522019-06-23T10:46:00.001-07:002019-06-23T19:16:39.923-07:002019<p dir="ltr">Saja sapu sapu sikit kasi tak berhabuk. Hampir 2 tahun tak <u>menulis</u></p>
shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-63626084269573859102017-03-19T03:08:00.000-07:002017-03-19T03:08:47.417-07:00RedhaUmayr is sleeping, izzat is at work, it s already 5.30pm. Just want to laze and at least publish a new post.<br />
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One of the best advice that i get before getting married is from my mom.<br />
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Like other people, we love to hear stories about our parents when they were young.<br />
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Amazingly, my parents are not those typical parents in malay drama who tells their kids how hard their life is when they were young or just married.<br />
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I remember my mom and dad will laugh when they reminisce their early married life. Like how they have to korek my tabung (the duit raya that i as the first baby collected as i was born) to buy diapers milk powders and other neccessities. And how they control their finance such as 1 fish for 2 person. And how their house has nothing and how they use boxes and cover them with table cloth to make them look like a coffee table.<br />
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Well as i was getting married, i asked my mom,<br />
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My mom looked quite surprised and said not at all. Never once she ever tought her life was pathetic.<br />
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"We were happy and very content"<br />
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"We never felt...if only we are rich and we can eat nicer food"<br />
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My mom told me, the key to happiness is redha. If you have redha in your heart insyaallah you ll be happy.<br />
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Alhamdulillah. That one piece of simple advice is so essential.<br />
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Right now i am happy and blessed, i have a loving husband and soleh son, we have a place to live. Our house is very simple, it is the back of a shop, so we arrange them so they look homey and comfy for us. We have a fridge to keep our food, washing machine to wash our clothes and izzat is so creative that he made our own ampaian. Alhamdulillah so far i never once complained and feel envy with other couples.<br />
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Sometimes i get confused when other people with bigger paycheck says that they dont have enough money and complaints about the economy.<br />
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I asked izzat, why is that so? He says their standard of living is high.<br />
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Alhamdulillah, i am thankful to Allah who grant me parents who raise me to be a grateful person and are able to be content with what we have. I am so so thankful to Allah with my life.<br />
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Dear my children i hope you guys shall grow up happy with less.<br />
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<b>Gosh it has been ages since i last travel. The last time was before getting married. I really didnt see it coming. But here we are now. Alhamdulillah. </b><br />
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Upon arrival, we browse through the internet and found out that people go to HCM gor shopping! We tried to search for other nature attractions nearby, and found the nearest would be Mekong river which os quite costly for us. </div>
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But we are too grateful and happy for the chance and shall enjoy every moment. </div>
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Most blogs that we find share shopping experience and tips, also the place of interest such as the war museum,mekong river and etc. </div>
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Now, it s the end of our first day here, and it s amazing! Turning from a single traveller to a mom traveller, you really see things in a different perspective!</div>
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There are so many mompreneurs here that i almost cried😢. As we walked along the streets i see amazing women doing 'street marketing' while their children play at the streets. A lot of them have babies being put in a rocker!</div>
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I see small chairs and cute coffee table nearby their display area where they put their 'bento'. There were bowls of half eaten rice with some sauces. As they do their business they ll feed their children. </div>
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Then as we walked further to the street shops, i was surprised that most of them live in the shop! Like the pharmacy for instance, at the front part of the shop there s poison cabinet, but right from the entrance of the shop i can see stove, tv set, hangers towels etc. </div>
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It was really amazing! Why? Because they don't look troubled by that!!!! </div>
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In Malaysia, we shall feel sympathy to the motorist who carries babies and small children on their motor. But in vietnam, it s really not a big deal. </div>
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All i can say that they are very strong people! And to the mompreneurs in HCM, they are rasing great kids with a very strong common sense! However it s all depend on how you view things, if these mompreneurs utilise their situation as a tool to raise amazing children, i can see there shall be great numbers of awesome bussinessman from HCM in the future.<br />
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shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-4374805280183168492016-09-10T06:49:00.001-07:002016-09-10T06:53:09.753-07:00Old draft of Motherhood, Publish je lahDate : 17 January 2016<br />
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Time left: 30 minutes of when 'umayr wakes up<br />
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Husband is out for a meeting - cook - checked - shower -checked - at 11 - mama is coming - open the shop - must write - about - motherhood - fast . thankful - internet connection- husband's desktop not slow -<br />
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Alhamdulillah.alhamdulillah.alhamdulillah<br />
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One word to describe motherhood ~~~ roller coaster ride! (this is exactly how i felt just after i gave birth to 'Umayr, the Muslim Hero <3 p=""><br />
Today, is already 6 months 2 days.<br />
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I remembered talking to my dear M about wanting to write about the whole new overwhelming feeling of being a mother, She said please do it as i already forgot how it feels like. I was shocked at first but today i realised she is correct. So must write down quickly, so at least something is written.<br />
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During the c-sect procedure, i was aware but too scared to think about what is going on, so i closed my eyes and prayed. Pray to ALLAH so that Umayr is safe and healthy.<br />
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and alhamdulillah. thank you ALLAH.<br />
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The night that Umayr was born, Umi helped me in the ward, so it was okay. Unfortunately the hospital only allowed her to be there only for the first night and not to be there even during the day.<br />
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So i was left alone with my baby (we haven't name him until 1 week), the new life, small, helpless, fragile sleeping beside me.<br />
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Oh first of all, just to remind you that i am such a careless and disorganized lady, i don't have everything planned perfectly, when i travel, i pack light and fast - so that describes my character.<br />
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and breastfeeding - it is not easy!!!! i had difficulties in positioning myself and Umayr, also in latching. I remembered in one of the whatsapp conversation when my friend E telling us how difficult it was to latch, i really can't imagine.<br />
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I was uncomfortable, clueless yet i felt a huge surge of responsiblity upon me. Of course, Umayr cried most of the time and i panic. Hearing the cry make s me want to cry too, because Umayr was so helpless. It was his first day in this dunya, of course evrything is new to him. I wanted to make him feel secure, and comfortable but at the same time everything is new to me too!At that time my whole perspective..............<br />
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</3>shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-51603967756748215982016-09-10T06:46:00.002-07:002016-09-10T06:53:39.062-07:00Being A MomAzam baru saya ialah untuk banyak membaca dan menulis.<br />
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OK i want to write about being a mother. I draft a lot of blog posts in my mind on my way to work end up being blank when i FINALLY get some time to blog. Umayr is sleeping soundly after such a long day with abi at the shop (and me at my own shop focusing, only to find out something that really shocked me - but i ll write about it one day)<br />
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When i was single, and childless --appropriate word is it?, i always observe my friends, relatives and random parents out there handling their bundle of joy. There are some occasion whereby i felt ' ok, when i have my own kid, i ll do it differently'.<br />
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Little that i know that when you become a mother, it is really beyond our imagination. Salute to all parents in the world. The truth is parents shall do what they think is best for their children, and every parents is not the same. So i think it is not fair ti judge a parent for whatever they do for their kid. However, as for me i am open for suggestions and discussion from others in raising kids. Trust me, i'm okay with it.<br />
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I think my close family and friends knows me well that i don't have what people call as 'motherly touch' or whatever. Sometimes i feel that i am a man in a women's body. Too simple!<br />
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When we have umayr', we don't shop much for his fancy clothes, toys (apart from having a very tight budget and cashflow). Most of the clothes alhamdulillah are presents from the loved ones. As fr Umayr's food, of course i hope that we can feed Umayr with the healthiest food on earth!<br />
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But, being a new mom, running a business (which insyaallah expands and bring more benefits to people) , a pharmacist, i end up feeding Umayr with healthy food insyaallah but not fancy food. As long as there is carbohydrate, protein, fibre and vitamins, it' s good enough. It could be a plain porridge with brocolli and egg. I pray to ALLAH to grant Umayr health. Ameen. At the same time i hope Umayr shall grow up healthy and be the type of person who are able to live with less. Insyallah.<br />
Ameen.<br />
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<br />shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-51081131644489360672015-10-20T10:33:00.001-07:002016-09-10T06:53:53.515-07:00rawi just need to let it out or maybe the best word is to write it out.<br />
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FB is not relevant, Blog is ok because the one who really cares who reads this, dan customer dan staff takkan baca kot.<br />
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aku sedih. rasa lemah semangat. Pada msa yang sama aku rasa aku hebat. Macam mana tu?<br />
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Ya ALLAH semoga apa yang umayr lalui menjadi tarbiyyah yang hebat dalam membentuk peribadi muslim yang mantap.<br />
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Tadi nak edar fliers. jerebu teruk. Hukum nya harus bagi aku untuk edar . sebab sales meningkat tapi perlu meningkat dengan kadar yang lebih cepat. aku rasa bertanggungjawab terhadap pemegang saham syarikat. bukan rasa tapi memang bertanggungjawab. Of course boleh suruh staff. tapi sebagai bos aku kena guide first time. kasi diorg semangat jugak. tapi nangis dulu sorg sorg dalam bilik air bila tgk umayr. tak sanggup nak bawa dia keluar dlm keadaan jerebu teruk. walaupun dari kedai ke kereta. rasa kesian sgt. mesej dlm group shareholder dgn harapan dapat sikit acknowledgement ttg perasaan dan concern aku tapi...apa yang aku luahkan dipandang sepi. Diorg tak faham. sekurang kurangnya cakaplah aku seorang ibu yang hebat. apekah....<br />
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orang boleh kata kenap tak itu dan kenapa tak ini...aku hargai pandangan dan aku ambil serius dan jumpa jalan penyelesaian...cuma aku nak diorg cakap...shifaa mmg it is not easy to handle a new business (retail) with new baby. syukur suamiku faham. kami sama sama dlm retail yg berbeza. jadi aku pun faham apa kesukaran yg dialaminya, tapi mungkin lelaki ni cara handle lain.<br />
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aku ni, menyusu..dengan surge of prolactin dan oxytocin mneyebabkan aku sensitif kot. namgis je la jawabnya<br />
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kali ni tulis je ...x sempat nak update blog. 15 minit ni curi masa luahkan semua. tidur. esok bangun dgn harapan baru. kekuatan baru keazaman baru.<br />
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ya allah pergantunganku kepadamu semain kuat. itu satu hikmah yang aku rsa sekarang. kalau semua smooth and steady nanti bila dah berjaya aku xleh nak cerita ive gone through this.<br />
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YA ALLAH, aku mohon kekuatan dan barokah. dan peliharalah umayr. patut menagdu dlm solat lagi afdal. tapi nak jgk tulis blog<br />
<br />shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-65592027619861031052015-04-05T04:36:00.000-07:002016-09-10T06:54:22.296-07:00UjianBismillahirahmanirrahim, <br />
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Fuh I am not sure how in future I am going to update my blog. Yes, indeed for those who read a lot, and writes, they shall stay consistent updating their blog. <br />
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Anyway today I am alone, husband is working (opps i'm married, alhamdulilllah), parents went out for kenduri, younger sister went for driving lesson, and I'm alone at home staring at the TV, hopping from one channel to another. TV programmes can't seem to satisfy me lately....then dozed off <br />
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Woke up, the TV still on, it s NONA. One of the segments really caught my interest, I end up with teary eye.<br />
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A story of 57 years old man, who opened 7 eleven in Bukit Bintang in 1984. His dad passed away in 1990 which made him decide to let go everything and stay at the village to take care of his mom who suffers from stroke. What really caught my interest was, as compared to many other similar true stories shown on TV whereby we shall feel sympathy towards the family and shed some tears out of humanity, this man is different. The house was very simple, like many other wooden village house.<br />
The segment showed how he bathe his mom, helped her take wudhu, wear the telekung and perform solat. He prepares her food and drinks, and his mom looks very clean. Then he shall help to put a small desk on her bed for his mom to read the quran. Everything looks clean and organized. In most case we shall notice the caregiver looks quite tired, but not this man. He never stop smiling!!!! Subhanallah, he does seems very happy. He said, treat your mother like a queen. and he really does treat her like a queen. At that moment, I felt quite jealous of him, because I am sure he is one of the chosen one by ALLAH. He is still single, but I believe, it's because he is too good for any women on earth. He might be seeing his other half in heaven. Insyaallah. <br />
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Story 2:<br />
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It's almost the same as story 1, but it is between husband and wife. And the family are quite well to do. The husband who is actually a public figure Jins Samsuddin, suffers from Alzheimer. The wife took care of him almost the same way as the man in story 1. What really made me cried was her inspiring words. <br />
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" Saya bersyukur kepada Allah kerana diberi peluang untuk merasai ujian kecil ini"<br />
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after all, that s what life in this world for. to be tested. Hereafter is the ultimate.<br />
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shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-5534059201018771582014-09-01T01:57:00.001-07:002014-09-01T01:57:29.314-07:00perihal duit, perut dan mimpiBismillahirahmanirrahim.<br />
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Aku membuat keputusan untuk meluahkan rasa di sini, kerana blog ini yang baca pun sedikit dan mereka yang baca pun yang rapat dan concern tentang aku, x mungkin random orang akan jumpa kot. hahah. Setiap hari sebenarnya aku sangat berdebar, sejak 16 June 2014, sejak kedai aku dibuka. Bermodalkan 'hard earn money' dan duit simpanan ahli keluarga, aku mengambil risiko untuk mengejar mimpi. Dulu aku bermimpi untuk mempunyai kedai sendiri, dan ALLAH makbulkan doa aku. Dan hari ini aku merasai sendiri apa yang sering aku dengar, kisah kisah usahawan yang berjaya, yang melalui liku liku di permulaan. Antaranya :<br />
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<li>" You have to bear with first 3 years"</li>
<li>"I was very fragile at that time, cried a lot"</li>
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Sebenarnya sekarang aku tengah membuat aku punya cashflow, tapi debaran di perut ni setiap kali aku but cashflow (macam bercinta), so aku stop and tulis dlm blog. nak tulis kat fb x elok. </div>
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Alhamdulillah setakat ini sentiasa ada improvement, tapi memang penuh debaran, kerana aku rasa dalam perniagaan, yang mana kita telah laburkan semua yang kita ada, tekanan dia berbeza. Kalau dulu, hujung bulan dapat gaji, in fact x ingat pun gaji masuk bila, sebab alhamdulillah, nak withdraw atau bayar online selalu cukup, sekarang, lepas satu satu bank pergi, lepas satu satu atm card cuba. dan setiap bulan perlu pastikan cukup duit untuk minyak, tol, dan duit kereta. Tapi perasaan macam ni sebenarnya indah, kerana kita belajar hidup apa adanya. (walaupun sekarang i'm holding my tears). </div>
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Seseorang yang sangat rapat dengan aku pernah menasihati aku untuk amalkan surah waqiah, tidak kurang juga yang menasihati aku untuk amalkan solat sunat dhuha, dan aku cuba amalkan. </div>
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Tapi amalan surah waqiah sangat memberi motivasi, bukan lah dengan membaca surah ini, directly sales akan meningkat, tapi apa yang amazingnya, surah ini, menceritakan tentang hari kiamat. Setelah membaca surah ini, aku akan ingat tujuan utama kita ialah akhirat dan syurga. Jadi segala kesulitan yang dialami di dunia ini, sepatutnya membuat aku lebih kuat dan semangat! Dan dalam surah ini juga, ada menyebut tentang ALLAH yang memberi rezeki. Jadi setiap customer yang datang, aku merasakan ALLAH yang menggerakkan hati mereka. </div>
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Apa pun, tak ada apa yang perlu aku rungutkan, kerana nikmat ALLAH terlalu banyak, tak terkira, Aku dikurniakan keluarga yang sangat memahami dan membantu, dan tidak cukup dengan itu, ALLAH hadiahkan pula keluarga baru yang bukan sahaja memahami, malah merasai apa yang aku alami. Maka aku dikelilingi oleh orang orang yang sangat 'mendukung'. Itulah nikmat ALLAH yang paling tak terhingga. Terima kasih ALLAH. </div>
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duit - apa yang aku fikir setiap hari</div>
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shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-91427019959365186512014-05-31T11:27:00.000-07:002014-05-31T11:27:56.189-07:00perihal hati<div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">A Reflection:</span></div>
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<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">2 tahun lalu, aku pernah menulis tentang perihal hati, tentang layak kah kita untuk ber<a href="http://balderash.blogspot.com/2012/11/kecil-hati.html">kecil hati</a>. Hmm mungkin aku terlalu mahu untuk tidak berkecil hati, setiap kali aku hampir kecil hati aku ubah persepsi. Tapi aku rasa, sebenarnya manusia perlu berkecil hati. Itu adalah fitrah. Kerana sebenarnya bila kita mula berkecil hati, itulah masa kita kembali pada ilahi. Jika setiap kali pun kita mahu positifkan diri, kita mungkin lupa merintih pada ilahi. Kerana hakikatnya manusia itu lemah, sifat manusia perlu untuk meluahkan, merintih dan bermanja. Aku tak pasti kalau lelaki, tapi untuk perempuan, kita pasti akan merasa lebih lega setelah meluahkan apa yang terbuku di hati. Aku pasti bukan aku sahaja tapi semua pun pernah, apabila hati betul betul terguris, dan kita cerita pada ALLAH, cerita dalam doa, bukan minta apa apa tapi hanya cerita. Dan setelah itu, sebenarnya masalah masih tidak selesai, orang yang mengguris hati kita masih tidak perasan, dan mungkin akan terus mengguris, tapi hati kita lebih tenang dan tidak lagi terguris. (kerana kita telah menangis terhiba hiba menceritakan pada Pembolak balik hati). Subhanallah. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Itu yang berlaku pada aku, aku baru perasan yang aku kini jarang sekali merintih padaNYA. Imanku lompong dan hatiku kosong (eh, power lak rasa bahasa melayu aku). Aku rasa aku perlu juga untuk biarkan hati aku terguris sekali sekala. Agar aku kembali kepada Yang Paling Mencintaiku lebih dari sesiapapun. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Wallahualam</span></div>
shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-87578414827974554852014-01-04T09:01:00.001-08:002014-01-04T09:01:18.366-08:002014new post. new year, new laptop. :)<div>
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i think my endurance level is quite high (puji diri sendiri pulak)</div>
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i can live with the slowest ever laptop back in uni years.When I typed one word, i can go make a cup of coffee first while waiting for those words to appear.</div>
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I am not an athletic kind of person,back in school, when i was in a netball team (class netball team), i never get to play, because i am not aggressive. But hey! i can stand paddling all day long under the hot sun along Sungai Pahang! and whenever i go hiking, i can stand being the last one to reach the basecamp or summit. </div>
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oh even my handphone, i can stand living without a handphone charger. i lived by charging the phone anywhere, anytime using any charger. hahah</div>
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well, it all depends on perspective.</div>
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Today, in 2014 i'll list out few life lessons that i learnt : </div>
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1) Happiness is a choice. I hear this often even during my uni years, but i came to realize and practice them quite recently.</div>
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2) If you can't change the situation, change the perspective ( this one lesson i learnt in 2013)</div>
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3) But if you can change the situation, work towards that ( am working on it)</div>
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4) Life is about making decisions, and there are no right decision. The most important thing is how you make a decision. ( Back in 2013, i made few significant decisions about my life, which i felt was the right thing to do, and now in 2014, when i was about to face the impact of those decisions, i am considering to take a detour) ALLAH knows best. whatever path that i choose, may that path leads me to ALLAH and prophet Muhammad pbuh. </div>
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5) Learn to respond not react. Whenever people are being harsh and mean to me, i learnt that if i just be patient, don't react, think before respond, i ll realize that they are just being insecure. So, just be patient.</div>
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ok that's it. My life has always been good. Alhamdulillah ya ALLAH for the blessings. </div>
shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-67325819433700549232013-11-29T09:22:00.000-08:002013-11-29T09:22:22.056-08:00perlu ke tajuk?<br />
penatnya hari ni..............<br />
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aku tau hari ni akan jadi x best dari awal lagi, sebab firstly aku terlepas subuh, semua jadi x kena, keluar rumah tertinggal phone, pergi bank 4,5,6,7 kali. plan nak mop rumah and lipat baju x jadi, sorang member buat kite rasa kecik hati, sekarang dok rumah sorang sorang rasa sunyi. <br />
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Teringat borak dengan kawan, die kata family die besar susah nak kumpul semua, tapi sgt close, walaupun masing masing banyak komitmen kawan, kerja, usrah, etc etc, tapi xde pulak rasa distant amongst family member. <br />
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then aku teringat sorang kawan cakap pasal keberkatan. huraian die macam ni, bile kite kejar akhirat and cinta ALLAH, ALLAH akan memelihara kita, memberi berkat dan rahmat. so aku macam nak cipta satu doa, <br />
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" Ya ALLAH, aku mohon keberkatan dalam setiap saat dalam hidup aku, bantulah aku dalam cita-cita dan impianku demiMU, walau sesibuk mana aku dalam urusan kerjaya ku, bantulah aku untuk memberi masa, kudrat, wang, kasih sayang dan perhatianku untuk ibu bapaku, adik beradikku, nenek nenekku, makcik dan pakcikku, sepupu sepupu ku, kaum kerabatku, sahabat sahabat ku, jiran-jiran ku, dan insyaallah, adik adik ipar ku, anak-anak saudara ku, dan seterusnya suami, anak anak, mertua, ipar duai, kaum kerabat baru dan diriku sendiri, Semoga hubungan kita, semakin hari semakin intim,aku mohon walau apa pun terjadi, pelihara cintaku terhadapmu"<br />
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sebab aku rasa, macam kes kawan aku yang aku cerita tu, mungkin sebab allah memberkati keluarga mereka, walaupun jarang jumpa, tapi hubungan kekeluargaan tetap utuh, dan aku kagum. <br />
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aku pernah rasa puas sangat bila aku kerja bersungguh sungguh, tapi pada masa yang sama aku dapat attend keduri kahwin and dapat spend time dgn keluarga,sedara and sahabat dan ziarah org sakit dan bile dapat accomplish banyak to do list dalam masa yang singkat. aku rasa itulah keberkatan masa.<br />
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dan hari ni, macam x berapa nk best sangat, tapi ada few good things that happened today:<br />
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- dapat makan nasi lemak best kt sg merap dgn ayahsu, suhail and Aisha<br />
- check in ticket untuk family balik Malaysia<br />
- transfer duit (yg ni paling mencabar)<br />
apa pun aku cuba sehabis baik to make today better than yesterday, tapi macam x pulak,wallahualam. semua pun insyaallah ada hikmahnya. tapi rasa x best sebab start hari dengan subuh gajah dan zuhur dinosaur. <br />
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semoga esok lebih baik. ameen ya rabb.shifaahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04448217081042479934noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4451320598717642073.post-52045459899248600362013-10-01T11:57:00.001-07:002013-10-01T11:57:33.052-07:00Ujian<i>Lamanya tak blogging!! Post yang terbaru pun pendek je, sebenarnya masa tu tengah semangat nak update blog, tapi came across few posts while blogwalking, terus tawar hati nak cakap banyak2. Sekarang tengah belajar untuk diam dan buat kerja. Tapi hari ni nak share something that i feel that i have to :</i><br />
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Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah, The Creator of me, my family, friends, colleagues, and the whole universe. Praise be upon Him, for He is the reason we are here, thus the purpose of everything is to submit to ALLAH. If someone is stalking me, knows every single bit of my life and she has to make dua to Allah, on behalf of me, 95% of the doa, would be words of gratitude. Thank you ALLAH.<br />
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Life has been smooth for me as far as i can remember. Even during my freshman year as a pharmacist, i have to admit, it was not that bad as compared to my friends. Listening to what my colleagues have gone through on and on, makes me wonder and i asked my mum ;<br />
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" Umi,we know that ALLAH tests those whom He loves and ALLAH considers HIS servants capabilities before testing them. I don't feel that i am being tested, because things has been very smooth for me as compared to my friends, i wonder why"<br />
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I guess i have been listening and reading to so many "luahan hati" sessions regarding work( mostly since it was our first year of working) at the same time listening to so many words of wisdom to motivate them such as " ALLAH loves you more that He tests you", " This is what great people has to face" etc etc etc...that somehow i envy them.<br />
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Those thoughts and feelings went on about a week, when one lovely evening after friday lunch call, at UNIKEB, i received a phone call, ( i think it was december 2011)<br />
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" Shifaa, 22 Oktober, ada salah bagi ubat" - That is when the whole world starts spinning.....<br />
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After 2 months, a patient came back shouting angrily at the pharmacy complaining that he was dispensed with wrong medication by me. It was a serious mistake, serious enough that the patient complained to the specialist, asking the doctor to refer him to other hospital, serious enough that i pray for his health day and night.And i can't tell you more about it......<br />
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That was the worst thing that ever happened to me and i hope that is only it. I was devastated that i spent most days at work crying in the toilet, later bursting into tears all the way back home, and at home.<br />
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abah : Shifaa, if you keep on crying, that means you are not pleased (redha) with ALLAH. A servant of ALLAH may feel sad for what happened but must accept the fact that, what happen had happened and there is nothing that you can change, so move on, and try your best not to repeat the same mistake. That is a sign of redha.<br />
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Forgive me ALLAH, for being so arrogant and snobbish, thinking that i am not being tested. Because ALLAH tests his servants in many different ways, and that includes, comfort, ease, wealth. The harder part is because, it is easy to forget that it's a test. ASTAGHFIRULLAH......<br />
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To whoever reading this, i am sorry if i once envied you. I had already realized few years back, after the incident; that it is such an inappropriate feeling. wallahualam.<br />
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Some things are meant to be unwritten.<br />
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