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Good Deed

2011-12-16T04:19:00.000-08:00

Hey, remember when i say how boring and dull my blog is? Well here is another story of me in the car on my way to work...

and....remember when i say there are number of people whom i find their tazkirah quite interesting? Well, one of them is Ustaz Nasib Zawawi.

I was listening to him on the radio on my way to work talking about few types of good deed.I did not manage to jot down all the 'cool' and 'a slap in the face' points that he said.So unfortunately i forgot all of them. Though i remember the topic that he talked about but, i can't seem to recall the gist of his tazkirah.

Anyway these points are just popped up ideas from my own deep think. (not evidence based, but still i want to write about it)

So far i can think of 2 types of good deeds:
1) by fitrah (nature)
2) by order

1. One day,when i was in a middle of a group discussion with colleagues, a good friend of mine called me, asking me if can pick her up from the bus station since there was no one to pick her up and she was carrying heavy luggage. Without hesitation, i excused myself to leave early to pick her up.

2. We were on our way down from Mount Senyum Summit, i was exhausted added up to being dehydrated, the haversack at my back was killing me, but i pushed myself up to continue the journey. Suddenly, one of my teammate injured her ankle and had difficulties to even walk. So, all of us took turns carrying her haversack and helped to carry her all the way down.

3. One fine evening, i was looking for a parking near the shop lots, when i saw a group of boys wanted to cross the road, so i slowed down and gave way for them.

4. 'Help!!! I'm being robbed!!' I was actually at the same escalator as the thief who was trying to run away, so with all the might and gut that i had, i lifted my leg up, and made him fell down...and the handbag is back to the owner.

Here are some examples showing that, the human being is just one remarkable creation. Doing good deed is human nature. These are the things that, most of us do and they are actually good deeds. Some people do say that by just being a human being, the world can be better place to live in, provided we just follow our human nature, which is one of them by doing good deeds.

But let's just see it this way, imagine how would you feel if :

1. You are actually already on your way to pick up your friend from the bus stop. You've ignored the cynical remarks from some of you colleagues for leaving the discussion early. Suddenly, your friend called you saying that her boyfriend finally can pick her up and they were heading for their dinner. She invited you to join her though..

2. Towards the end of the expedition, when you finally reach the base camp and and was getting ready to clean and pack things up around the camp,the injured teammate's parent came and fetched her, and left without even saying thank you.

3. The group of boys that you gave way for them to cross the road, deliberately walked slowly and took such a long time to cross the road. They were laughing around and joking with one another ignoring you in the car waiting for them.

4. After you gave the handbag to the owner, she just took it and walked away and that's it.

Naturally, i shall say that somehow we do feel angry, pissed off, hurt or offended, more or less unappreciated if we were to be in these situation and as such....isn't?

That is why, despite doing good deed is already in our nature, ALLAH has command us to do good deed!

Because if we do good deed because of ALLAH commandments, we don't give a damn of what's the outcome of it.We are doing it not just because it's our nature, but we are ordered to do that.

And that makes ISLAM beautiful.

So when they say, why you need to be asked to do good deeds when doing them is actually part of human nature, i have my answer

Ohhh i just hope that you get my points here and i don't cause any misunderstanding.

p/s : but the tazkirah that i listened by Ustaz Nasib Zawawi gave clearer picture about it.

decision

2011-11-27T23:16:00.000-08:00

Again, it's raining and today is a holiday --> Must write before the rain ends.

A lot has been happening since my last post...A LOT....then i realized that it was only a month ago.

It was long time since i last exercise consistently, only then when i realized it was only 6 month ago.

It seems that time don't fly as fast as i thought.

Well, i don't know what does this signifies, am i enjoying every moment of my life right now?

WELL YES!!!

Maybe i just love to work out--> sungguh x best ayat ni ( like i used to have a perfect body figure)

Anyway, i find that most of my post are quite simple and some may say dull --> whatever..

All i write about are what i see on my way to work, the songs that i listen to in the car, the weather, how i hate cats, random thoughts, conversations that i hear. Once in a while i write about things that i do. Well i do feel the same way about my facebook profile ( no uploading photo or status updates showing how busy and how fun my life is)

some may sarcastically say --shifaa, get a life! --> not affected

some did say --> shifaa, you didn't socialize that much do you? --> offended, but whatever.

Maybe as years pass by, you just know what you want in life. And i find that i'm fine with simple. Simple thing makes me happy,simple people make me think and self reflect..and bla bla bla

I can say that i just love to daydream, and at the end of the day i never regret of doing that --> except when i do this during solat --> astaghfirullah al azim (satan always has it ways of straying people --> have to fight!!!)

Anyway, summarizing of A LOT of things that happening since my last post:

I came into one generalized conclusion (typical me - i always quickly jump into conclusion) -->

In life, there is no such thing as WRONG DECISION. It's actually HOW you decide, BELIEVING in what you decide, and be RESPONSIBLE of your decision.

song review or what?

2011-10-05T11:42:00.000-07:00

Time : 5.30 pm
I was driving alone in the rain, accompanied by good music,whilst enjoying the scenery behind the windscreen. Oh, how i wish i can just stop the car at the roadside and let myself be captivated by its splendid-ness, maybe with a cup of hot coffee!

Yes! i always love it when it rains! bliss~

I headed to 7-Eleven which happened to be on my right! Went in and bought Old Town White Coffee Ice--> not hot,but still good enough :) And that brings me to-->

Now: 3.31 am - not sleepy. But hey, don't get me wrong, i'm not a fan of coffee.

It's a song review, erm not my favourite, but they got me thinking...

Song :Malique ft Rabbani - Perang Dah Tamat

This song describes the emotion and sense of victory when the war is finally over ...

some of the lyric that caught me thinking..(i feel like sharing the whole lyric, but its going to be very lengthy)

Alhamdulillah
Kita selamat
Kabus dah hilang
Perang dah tamat

...

Perang sudah bubar
Perang sudah bubar
Ganti sebiji peluru
Dapat sebatang cigar
Perang sudah bubar
Perang sudah bubar
Ganti sebatang senapang
Dapat sebiji gitar

Hmm....

One day, when the war really is over, and the victory belongs to the owner..

Do i actually deserve to say, or sing the lyrics and be excited with it?

Because, when the war actually comes to an end, do i have anything to do with it?

Because, the truth is, most of the time i totally forget about them,

SELDOMLY

RARELY

or can i just say NEVER

i include them in my d'ua....

astaghfirullah al azim

Trust

2011-09-23T23:05:00.000-07:00

I may post and repost this, again and again.

Rain

2011-09-17T02:56:00.000-07:00

Rain is pouring down heavily outside; it seems to be the best time to open the window and feel the cool breeze. Subhanallah. Though many may pull up the comforter and sail away in their beautiful dream, as for me i rather sit in front of my laptop---> blogstalking. Oh how i wish i am still in my small cubicle back in college where i can open my window,and enjoy the smell of the rain without having the raindrops splattering into my room.

I remembered few years back when someone asked me " What do you think about love". I was actually dumbstruck and i answered in one word; and that's it --> no further details.

To tell you the truth, there are certain things that i avoid telling people or sharing with people. In conversations, when talking about random things; such as... serious issues like politics, Islamic worldview or some other things ; even if i have strong opinion upon something, most of the time i decide to keep them to myself. Because sometimes, i see no point in sharing those ideas. Or maybe, i am just very shy.

So, that is why i feel that i have not been updating my blog for quite some time, as i feel that i rather keep some of the stories and thoughts to myself. Well, i guess i am not a hardcore writer; just yet.

Or maybe, actually deep down inside, i am afraid of the saying " termakan dengan kata kata sendiri"

Speechless

2011-08-03T16:30:00.000-07:00

Phew!!!!

It has been so long since my last post, instead of writing a new entry, i keep on adding my bloglist and spending most of the time blogwalking or better say blogstalking!

One of the common topics being posted by my friends lately were related to work, since everyone has completed their so called 'housemanship' period, or the exact term is PRP ship.

Well, alhamdulillah, same thing here, now i am waiting for my placement as a pharmacist. There is no rush for me since i'm quite comfortable here, but i feel that i'm ready to be placed anywhere.

All i can say that life is an open secret (hehe it's a title of a book ), and i can never really know what will happen in the future and the exact reasons for things thats happening and will happen. Just have to live my live at the moment.

It's the 4th day of Ramadhan and i took a day off today, and decided to just post something here.

SubhanALLAH, ISLAM is beautiful religion and now we are in the beautiful month of Ramadhan. This is the month where i feel that ALL MUSLIMS are united, as we have ONE CLEAR AND SAME AIM, which is to make full use of the months.

*STOP*

As i was writing this post, i was facebooking and my brother shared a note regarding one FB group for murtads.

Well, i don't feel like writing anymore, need to do some research and think.

Things that matters

2011-04-30T03:22:00.001-07:00

1. Amir Raja Lawak - i am not a big fan of him, not even a fan to be precise. Everytime he tries to crack a joke and make people laugh, all he gets are unhearty,sympathetic, and mockery laugh. In fact,after trying so hard, he had to face all the synical remarks from the judges.If it's me to be in his place,i will just quit and try something else.But, this petite guy stays strong, blocking away all the negativity to stand on the stage, trying all different approaches to make us laugh our heart out.He is one person with a big heart.subhanallah

2. Ucop Wilcha-he is only a supporting actor in "Hantu Kak Limah Balik Rumah".But he himself had never expect that he can become so famous today; and now everyone is talking about him.He is invited to many TV and radio shows as guest star. Same thing goes for Nabil Raja Lawak and Upin Ipin. I dare say that they didn't expect that things finally turned out superbly well for them. SubhanALLAH, if ALLAH wants to give you rizq, HE CAN GIVE THEM IN ANY WAY THAT WE CAN NEVER IMAGINE. Thus, we must have STRONG FAITH in HIM.

3. My brothers:

One of my brothers is actually taking architecture course in one of the local universities. Honestly, i have to admit that he is so passionate in his course. Any magazines, reading material related to his course, he will buy them. In fact when there is any conferences, symposiums or exhibition; he will try his best to attend them.

Well, same thing goes for his younger brother, as he is so passionate in music, composing musics, and dai'e related matters.

As for my youngest 6 years old brother, he loves to play badminton so much, but unfortunately, he doesn't even know how to serve! HE PRACTICED EVERYDAY WITH THE WALL and forced my dad to send him to badminton class and now, he can return my dad's smash!

These are the things that are close to me, and somehow motivates me. SubhanALLAH.

ikhlas??

2011-03-16T05:27:00.001-07:00

Aku terpanggil untuk berkongsi cerita setelah terdengar perbualan antara 2 orang rakan sekerja berkenaan ikhlas.

Staff 1 : kalau kau buat sesuatu kebaikan,dan mengharapkan pahala dari ALLAH adakah itu dikira ikhlas?

Staff 2 : ya,apa2 yang kita buat dgn niat utk mendapatkan pahala dikira ikhlas.

Ini mengingatkan saya terhadap satu rancangan motivasi pagi yang saya dengar dalam perjalanan ke tempat kerja.

Kisahnya begini...

Situasi -seorang ayah yang baru pulang dari tempat kerja dalam keadaan yang sangat letih,meminta anaknya mengambilkan segelas air buat penghilang dahaga.

Anak 1-"alaa ayah ni asyik saya saja yang kena suruh buat semua benda,kenapa tak suruh orang lain buat" kata anaknya.Namun.anaknya tetap menolong untuk mengambilkan air buat ayahnya yang kehausan

Anak 2 - "Hehehe ayah nak air ke....boleh..dengan syarat angah nk upah seringgit" ujar anaknya itu. Serupa juga,anaknya tetap menyediakan air minum buat ayahnya.

Anak 3 - "ayah nak air???ok ok saye ambilkan" dengan takut2 anaknya menghulurkan segelas air buat ayahnya.Barangkali anaknya yang ini takut dimarahi oleh ayahnya.

Anak 4- belum sempat ayahnya meminta,segelas air bersama sepiring biskut siap tersedia di atas meja."ayah mesti penatkan..saya dah siapkan air dan biskut..ayah nak saya urutkan ayah?"

Ape yang dapat dilihat di sini ialah semua anak itu melakukan kebaikan terhadap ayahnya.mereka semua telah membantu ayahnya menghilangkan dahaga. :-)

anak 1 - Melakukan kebaikan atas sebab perintah..walaupun ade ngomelan kecil.kebaikan tetap dilaksanakan..sebagai hambaNYA kita memang disuruh berbuat baik.

Anak 2 - Melakukan kebaikan untuk mendapatkan ganjaran.Ini juga bukan satu kesalahan.Malah sebagai hambanya kita memang dijanjikan pahala bagi setiap amal kebaikan yang dilakukan.

Anak 3 - Melakukan kebaikan atas sebab takut..takut dimarahi, takut menyinggung perasaan dan takut berbuat silap.Sebagai hamba ALLAH perasaan takut terhadapNYA adalah perlu,kerana ini dapat membantu kita dalam setiap perbuatan, tutur bicara yang dilakukan.

Anak 4 - Melakukan kebaikan atas dasar cinta dan kasih.Kerana kadih terhadap ayahnya die mahu berbuat segala apa jenis kebaikan buat ayahnya.Sebagai hambaNYA alangkah hebatnya jika kita mampu mencapai tahap cinta kepadaNYA sehingga segala apa yang kita lakukan adalah kerana cinta.

Berbalik kepada perbualan yang saya curi dengar...mari kita tepuk dada,tanya selera

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Struggling

2011-02-19T02:58:00.000-08:00

Struggling with my own emotion, fighting with my own self. Often, my heart, mind go against each other. Justifying choices and decisions that i am going to make, the impact, on me and others , now or later.

Well, that' s my struggle of whether to go; or not to go to work; to take an emergency leave or not. When i had headache, tummy pain, or just a mild fever, can i just take an emergency leave? But what if the pain goes away after that? Will that sounds wrong?What about working with passion? intention? niat..as posted in one of my entries before...what a shame.

Fighting, and so far my mind wins the battle.But, it was not an easy one. So, finally i wake up, iron my clothes, grab some breakfast, greet my parents and off to work, praying to HIM to give me the passion, the focus and the sincerity.

On my way to work,

I will pass a wooden self made stall at the side road not far from my housing area.A small one but enough for people to have their quick breakfast before heading off to work. Their Nasi Lemak is the best! I remembered not too long ago, it was a smaller stall where they only sell Pisang Goreng. Their BEAUTIFUL daughter was always there to help her parents out. I figured that the daughter is younger than me, and probably girls at her age should now be in college enjoying their varsity life. Well, maybe that is their struggle, working everyday, fighting with the economy, working out for more income, so that one day, the BEAUTIFUL young lady can be together with her friends studying.

Oftentimes, i see a middle aged man cycling at the main road. He works as a lawn mower at houses and schools near my residency. Sometimes, when the weather was unfriendly, i saw him cycling hard and fast so that he will reach his work place before rain starts pouring down. The wrinkles on his face, the look from his eyes, the sweats from his forehead, i see responsibility, hope, determination, focus and strength. Struggling everyday to feed hungry mouth at home.

As i reach my workplace which is a hospital, walking towards the punch card machine, i have to go to the lobby; there, i will see family members, waiting at the entrance, persuading the security guard to allow them to see their loved ones in the ward. Also, i see old couples, with their bag of medicines, having breakfast at the cafeteria. They came early to the hospital for their doctor's appointment. At the emergency department, i see ill people, very ill people waiting for their turn to be attended by the hospital staff. Well, that is their struggle. Struggling not to get sick, struggling to stay healthy, struggling for their loved ones. STRUGGLING...

Can i compare them with my struggle?

Si Tanggang

2011-02-04T18:18:00.000-08:00

Si Tanggang is a a very famous Malaysian's Traditional Children's Folk Tales. It's a story of an obedient and innocent young man who lived in a poverty stricken village with his parents. One day, he decided to sail away to other parts of the the world to make changes in their life. He waved goodbye to his parents and promised them that one day he will return with success.He began his journey to the outer world, in searching for wealth. Finally, he got married to the daughter of a very rich ship captain. Years passed by and he actually forgot that he had once promised to return home to his parents. One day, he and the ship crew was forced to stopped by near a village (which actually was his village) due to the unpromising weather. Sadly, Si Tanggang was embarrassed with his parents and refused to acknowledge them because of their haggard appearance. Causing such a heartache to them, the mother cried out and suddenly Si Tanggang was turned into stone.

That's a short review of Si Tanggang.

In fact today, there are many films, dramas, short stories about a child being ignorant and disloyal to the parents. Most of us shall respond similarly to those stories, we shall loathe the child and pity the parents. Moreover, working in the hospitals allow me to see examples of dutiful and bad child.

But, if we think back, have we ever wonder that maybe some of the 'turned out to be a bad child' don't realize they are not being the best to their parents? In fact, some of them may thought that they are actually doing the right thing for the parents. Lets just ponder...

* * *

As for us, we grow more matured as time passes by ( at least we thought that we are more mature) , after graduating, finally settling down with quite stable career. The best thing is that, we start to have our own money, we feel that we are in control of everything become less dependent than before. Confidence starts to arise and in fact we are now ready to voice out our mind. Somehow, we start to have our own style of thinking, our own life plan with our own reasons and perceptions; which may not always go parallel with our folks'.

On the other hand, our parents also are getting older and older, and of course usually they always think that they know more about life than the children based on their life experience, which is quite true. Moreover, as they get older, they tend to be more sensitive and fragile.

That is when disagreement might takes place, and subtly it will affect the emotion, perceptions and if we are not careful enough, we may without realizing had cause a slight cut and hurt their feelings.

Thus, i shall say that it is not easy to be a praiseworthy (soleh/solehah) child, as we never know how would we react in desperate circumstances. Change is a constant matter in human life, so we change, they change, the environment change.

I don't dare to say that there is nothing we can do about it, but at least,we have to bare in mind of the facts and the reality and be aware of the unwanted probabilities.

We are not perfect, in fact, nobody is perfect even the elderly, thus we have to be really smart and careful in dealing with difficult situation, but i shall say that it is not easy without the help of ALLAH The Almighty, and Most Loving. Let's pray to HIM to protect us and help us to become a good child to our parents, a good sister, a good brother, a good neighbour, wife, parents, husband --> being the best in every role that we play, or will play and the most important role of all ; being HIS servant. InsyaALLAH.

5s

2010-12-30T03:25:00.001-08:00

As a start,i think this is going to be a very dry topic.But for the sake of trying out this new application from my new Galaxy S,just bare with me. Another thing, apart from being dry i think this entry seems like showing off. ;-)

Anyway, most pharmacy department in government hospitals are actually working hard towards some sort of accreditation (persijilan).I don't know much about this but the aim is to provide best service to the patients. So,factors that lead to problems in giving out the best service shall be eliminated. For instance, the arrangement and storage of drugs should be systematic enough so that ANYBODY even in the first week of employment can easily find the correct drug at shortest time.This applies to other aspect as well such as filing of documents, storage of departments' key and etc.Dry isn't it?

Well,what happened in Hospital Serdang was, our big boss had arranged 2 days course for us.She actually called a trainer from one training company (i guess) to guide us with methods to achieve our aim.

Ok this trainer had introduced to us a term called budaya KAIZEN which means small improvement but its continous or in Malay, peningkatan walau sedikit tetapi berterusan. It is actually originated by the Japanese culture.Now it is a commercialized culture in Malaysia.Why? because apparently,this company is being paid to promote and inculcate the culture in most of the hospital in Malaysia.

The thing is...

I find that budaya KAiZEN sounds sooo familiar..

And i realised that it reminds me of

The concept of ISTIQAMAH in Islam

A concept that has been taught to us Muslims since childhood..but somehow i did not realise the value and rewards that can be obtained (money,profit,influences,........) until i learnt about budaya KAIZEN. A Japanese culture which is being promoted extensively even to non Japanese and most importantly being practised and uphold by the Japanese themselves!

i understand if you dont get me...i think i have difficulties in expressing my points clearly lately.

So why 5s...?

(Shifaa Sangat Suke Syok Sendiri) :-P

p/s : 5s is actually another Japanese method which i don't feel like explaining.Just google them out.

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Tazkirah

2010-08-13T09:05:00.000-07:00

BLANK

I thought that i have so many exciting stories to share here, but after so many saved drafts, i end up not finishing any of them. Most of them are only halfway done. Yet, at home, i always have so many ideas to chat about; not necessarily about work, sometimes things that i listen from the radio, news, things that i see and observe, funny stories, current issues and other scoops that i find interesting. That is why i thought that i have so many things to blog out here.

Maybe this is because, i find it quite difficult to find suitable words, phrases, expressions to make sure that other people can grasp my point. Of course, it's easier for me to express the message face to face because, even if you can't find suitable words, you have expressions, tone and actions to help.

This brings me to ponder about Tazkirah (a short preach that serve as a reminder to the community). I am a dreadful person because, i am always reluctant to listen to Tazkirah .I even think that "nah, they are pretty much the same, basically you have to do good deeds and avoid doing bad stuff, most of the facts are no alien to me"

BUT

There are (but not many) number of persons whom i find that their tazkirah are quite interesting. Thinking about it i felt that the reason lies behind the elaboration of the already - known - points combined with accurate examples. These persons are able to find examples that revolves around me and other people and able to make me visualise, feel and appreciate the already - known points.

Which make me realise that, to be a preacher, you have to be observant of things around you, observant of human behavior and nature of life. Then you can explain your points by making examples using things around you. That explains why a speaker need to know their audience. Knowing the audience does not only mean knowing their occupation, level of education and monthly income, but also their lifestyle, and perceptions and even natural habit. Thus giving speech does not only mean delivering the points and facts but also being able to inspire and make make the audience appreciate those facts.

Now i know why i find it easier to tell stories to my family at home, because of course i know them very well!

These are obtainable skills whether in speaking or writing. So, nothing is impossible....

p/s: Initially, the title was supposed to be blank as i don't know what to write, but i'll change it to tazkirah...

Finding passion

2010-07-03T01:18:00.000-07:00

At first, i am not excited at all when i received the offer letter from Suruhanjaya Perkhidmatan Awam (SPA) appointing me as a pharmacist. I became super devastated when it was confirmed that we have to report for duty on 1 st July which's in a week time! At that time, i had nil preparation; the medical check ups, the 'akuan sumpah' and few boring stuff that needed to be done...

I was posted to HOSPITAL SERDANG.. (hope that's the best for me!). As an orientation, i was posted to a pharmacy department called Out Patient Department (OPD).

Well, if you or your family member never get sick, you may not know this.

When people go to the hospital and see the physician (as an outpatient), they will prescribe you with medications. Then, that is when you have to go to OPD Pharmacy to get your medication. Usually there'll be counters with pharmacist ready to dispense the medications to you.

BUT, what actually happen is there will be a team behind there to check the prescriptions (we call that screening), if there is anything wrong with the dose, drug, regimens..we shall clarify with the prescriber. When all is done, the prescription shall be verified and ready to be filled. That is when we shall prepare all the medication prescribed by the doctor, and there will be another staff to countercheck. This is to avoid wrong medication given. Then they will be sent to the counters, and 'ding dong' your number will appear, and the pharmacist shall dispense the medications to you. The process have to be done quickly and correctly so that, the patient does not have to wait too long for their meds. (This is SUPERSIMPLIFIED explaination on OPD Pharmacy)

That is basically what happen.

Remember when i said that i was not excited at all at first? I seek for motivation...

A very successful figure told me this

" Shifaa, just imagine the difference you can make in one's life if you do your job dedicatedly, the patient who receive the medication shall get better and become healthier and can continue their life happily"

This made me realise that everyone has to play their role. Imagine a mechanic who repair cars (an ambulance or a police car - to make it more dramatic) , obviously will make difference in one's life.

"Some people motivate themselves with holidays and vacation after hard work. Why not make your job as a vacation itself! Everyday you are excited to go to hospital and ease the burden of the patients, and make people happy. You'll enjoy your life"

Also, a very important person told me this

"It is all depends on your 'niat' (intention), don't aim for the money, or status, but search for the knowledge and experience, work with passion and you'll find happiness. Whatever obstacle you face (making mistakes, being scolded, etc etc), take it as a learning process. Everyday, you pray to ALLAH to protect you and ALLOW you to help other and make other people happy, because if you have sincere intention ALLAH will make things easy for you"

I'll try my best to keep that in mind.....

Knowing my own weaknesses, I purposely blog this out hoping that i will never forget.

So,whenever i am feeling low, i can read this and RECHARGE!

TransPeak Expedition with The Elites

2010-06-25T00:30:00.000-07:00

Kids, when i was young and free of commitment like you, i enjoyed hiking so much (and still do). My first expedition to G7 mountains was in 2010 (go and google what G7 is). I managed to convince your Tok Abah to allow me to join aunt Jiji, aunt Mieda, uncle Don, Uncle Zac, Uncle Mad, Uncle Cagan and Uncle Jepah in the TransPeak Expedition...

(Uncle Zac named us as Team Elite)

(Aunt Jiji, Me, Aunt Mieda, Uncle Don, Uncle Zac, Uncle Jepah, Uncle Mad, Uncle Cagan)

Friday - 4th June 2010
[Bukit Jalil - Ipoh - Ulu Kinta]

All of us gathered at Bukit Jalil (it used to be a bus terminal) and repacked our haversack so that we could fit our ration which was A LOT! The fact that me, aunt Jiji and aunt Mieda were GRACEFUL LADIES (and still are), we had more essentials compared to the men like toiletries and more clothes were needed which reduces the space for ration. Still, I felt like carrying tons of bricks! But, the guys bags' - i couldn't even lift it! Our bus was scheduled at 6 pm to Ipoh, but was delayed until 6.30 pm which was a blessing in disguise because aunt Mieda got lost and reached Bukit Jalil at 6.30pm! So, we arrived at Ipoh around 10pm. We had our dinner and isya' prayer before heading to Ulu Kinta. We were lucky to be offered by Abg Rajes (the guide)'s relative to stay in their house for the night.

Packing up the ration

Saturday - 5th June 2010 - The hike begin
[Ulu Kinta Dam - Kem Seroja - Kem Kijang - Waterpoint]

After our subh prayers , breakfast and 'toilet businesses', we proceed to Ulu Kinta Dam by a pick up truck. Both the ride and the view were breathtaking! I'll describe it as a roller coaster ride with beautiful scenery. I can never forget the surrounding mountains and hills with mixture tones of blue and green color perfected with the view of splashing water from the dam. As we reached the starting point , we pulled up our socks high , sprayed SOME Bygon (it's a cockroach repellent,and we hoped that it worked for leech!), and with a prayer, we hit the track!

On the way to Kem Seroja, we had to cross few streams whereby we had to step from one rock to another (if you don't want to wet your socks), which i found quite difficult as they were quite slippery and i needed large extend of my leg to the next rock. Well, i ended up wetting my socks all the way! We reached Kem Seroja around 1.30 pm and had our lunch and zuhr prayer. At 2.30 we hit the road towards Kem Kijang. Along the way, we actually had 10 minutes rest after every 1 hour hike. We arrived Kem Kijang around 4.30 pm and decided to camp at the next checkpoint which was the last waterpoint before reaching the Korbu Peak. We made it to the last checkpoint around 6 pm. Since we were quite ahead of time (most hikers camp at Kem Seroja, and some at Kem Kijang), we aimed to complete the expedition earlier than the normal tentative.

Sunday - 6th June 2010 - The Summits [Waterpoint - Korbu Summit - Gayong Summit - Kem Cerek - Junction Peak]

Approximately, we started our hike towards the Korbu Summit on the 2nd day at 9.30 am. This time the trail was steep almost all the way up. At certain points we had to use rope to help us push our weight up. I guess it was pretty much the same as rock climbing. At this time we took 10 minutes rest after 2 hours of hike. There were also a lot of large logs that we had to cross and go through under. Luckily i was wearing my newly bought purple track bottom! On the way to Korbu Peak, we reached a 'pseudo' or false peak, but with majestic view of the lines of mountains surrounding us. We finally got to the Korbu Summit at 12.30 pm. Korbu Summit (7162ft) is the 2nd highest peak after Tahan Summit. After fueling up ourselves with our packed lunch, we were all ready to hit Gayong Peak.

Rock Climbing!!

Korbu Summit - Craziness

Though the 3 hours route to Gayong Peak (7129ft) was not steep all the way, but it was a mental challenge to us as there were numbers of false peaks. Whenever we felt that we almost reached the Gayong Peak, disappointment comes after that. Finally at 5.30, we reached Gayong Peak, i was terribly exhausted, i can barely stand even during photography session! We had our prayer and quickly head towards Kem Cerek. The guide targeted to camp at Lembah H2O so that we can complete the hike in 3 days 2 nights.

Gayong Summit - The one in 'rain coat' is Abg Rajes

Rewarding view from Gayong Peak

Kids, if you ask me, the most challenging part was from Gayong Summit to Junction Peak, as that was when i was at my lowest point ever. According to Abg Rajes, we need to hike across around 4 hills to reach the Junction Peak. However, after the sunset and it was dark, and after NUMBERS of hills and peaks, we still had not reach the Junction Peak! We had not taken our dinner yet, and it was already 10 pm, we were out of drinking water. I had one slice of bread to keep me going. The route was also terribly steep and was not within my reach. At one point, i actually had a fever rush and was quite nauseous. With limited drinking water i forced myself to swallow Panadol Actifast Tablet, so that i can keep going and maintain my pace. To make it worse, the wind was biting. We were too tired to hike, we were shivering so much to even stop for a rest (Kids, if we rest, it will be much more colder).I kept my silence as actually was on the verge of breaking into tears.

That is when i humbly appreciate the greatness of Allah The Almighty.We thought of breaking the record by doing it for only 3 days, but it's HE who decides how fast we can conquer The Almighty's majestic nature.

We finally reach the Junction Peak, and decided to camp there.

Junction Peak finally

Monday - 7th June 2010 - [Junction Peak - Lembah H2O - Kem Kuali]

With only slice of bread with no drinking water, we begin our hike as early as 8.30 am to Lembah H2O. We reached Lembah H2O around 1 pm and had lunch, prayers and toilet business. Then gearing up, we aim at reaching Kem Kasut before dark, but only managed to arrive at Kem Kuali and decided to pitch our flysheet there. The route to Kem Kuali involved a lot of crawling, bending, and 'root' climbing but the view was mesmerizing and motivating, we managed to see the sunset on the way to Kem Kuali. We also managed to appreciate the view of Ipoh town which was very beautiful. We could see twinkling lights surrounded by mountains. Personally, i was thrilled, and i believed same thing goes with my team mates.

Before reaching Kem Kuali - Subhanallah

We had maggi for dinner which i felt like eating the most delicious food ever as i was starving. That night did not went well as most of us couldn't really sleep because of the rain. Besides, the grounds was not even as there were many roots.

Tuesday - 8th June 2010 - The final Summit [Kem Kuali - Yong Belar Summit - Kem Kasut - Kem Tudung Periuk - Sg Besar - Brinchang]

Today, we were so energetic and all hyped up as we can't wait to end the expedition. We took less than 1 hour to reach Yong Belar Peak (7156ft) The trail was steep and involved few bending. All of us had the best time of our lives at the summit of Yong Belar.We managed to see the best view ever and we can see the Korbu peak, which is FAAAAAAAAAR from the Yong Belar peak.We couldn't believe ourselves that we actually went up and downs numbers of hills and mountains.

(Left)The small peak at the back on the left-Korbu Summit!
(Right) - Better view without us

One word, it was LEGEND....wait for it...DARY!

Then we headed to Kem Kasut, which was in 1 hour hike, and continued to Kem Tudung Periuk. This was when actually i could see arrays of mountains on the side. Me and aunt Jiji shouted our name out loud to hear the echo, and we did! We reached to Kem Tudung Periuk at 2.30 pm and refilled our drinking bottles, and headed to Sg Besar, with Marrybrown as our motivation. Around 4.30 pm it started to rain and we were quite demotivated at that point. But, there was no other choice than to continue towards Sg Besar. The trail most of the time were muddy and towards the end it was slippery. We reached Sg. Besar at 6pm and had our meal and prayer. Then we headed to Blue Valley from Sg Besar whereby the trail was PVC pipes! (Balancing skill and good shoe is needed here!)The trail was quite muddy and smelly. Then we finally reach the long stairs where a pick up truck was waiting for us.

Later, we headed to Brinchang. It was my first time riding a pick up truck on road! I felt like a labour worker just got back from work. It was kind of cool!

We had one day rounding around Brinchang and Tanah Rata, and later headed back to KL with the BEST FEELING EVER!!!!

YIHA!!!

Thanks to TEAM ELITE because, "it's not just about the journey, but it's the people you travel with!" :)

Team Elite - showing number of G7 conquered

SPONTAN!

2009-11-11T02:37:00.001-08:00

Seriously, I have so many things going on in mind, but they are just ideas that can not be converted into letters and sentences. So I guess I'll just type my idea spontaneously…Everybody SPONTAN!

Actually hari ini rase tak best, tak ade mood exam, and hati rase tak happy.
To be specific, sem ini, tak se'interesting' as the previous semesters.
Maybe sebab banyak sangat benda yang mengejutkan terjadi (sape soh busy body amik tau..blame me)
Banyak sangat persoalan bermain2 dalam kotak pemikiran.
1. Hypocrisy
2. Civic minded
3. Loyalty
4. Polygamy
5. Friendship
6. Life priority
7. Being an almost perfect muslim
8. What goes around comes around (macam lagu Alicia keys)
9. Dan banyak lagi (Semua cam bole masuk jadi tajuk2 UNGS je)
I need answers, a perfect and accurate and concise definition on each of them
Which make me realize, that I need to
1. READ A LOT
2. THINK A LOT
3. SEE MORE PEOPLE – need to broaden my network, meet many people with many different lifestyle, cultures, perspective, knowledge… (I envy my parents, since during their college life, they had the chance to befriend with LOTS of people from different parts of the world, and they have their own opinion and perspective and style, and I like the way they think…..)
  (PERGHHHHHHH, puji parents sendiri, macam parents orang lain punye tak best jer. Hey, I don't know about your parents, mestilah diorang the best di mata korang jugak…..duhhhh~ )
Actually, I don't know where this is leading to…….haha, another crap for you!

Justifying my weekends

2009-10-09T10:17:00.001-07:00

Phew, susah betul nak update blog, I am so stressed with my laptop, so slow, it takes hours even for one letter to appear…cis! My ram is like 200+ MB, memang sikit kan? Or is it me who don't know how to take care of this expensive 'black book'…hmm

Anyway, half of the semester has already passed, let me just brief what I did during the weekends.

I registered 1 week late, so I had like extra 7 days of holidays! Yay! So, I did not go back during my first weekend. I can't really recall what I did during that weekend, but I think I spend most of the time practicing my vocals at Xanax with Ray and Fizah. And yeah, we went to somewhere near Gunung Tapis. We had hard time reaching the destination. Huh!

The second week, I joined Mount Buah Expedition with GG and Mida. Spent 2 nights at Mida's brother's house. Really had a great time. Oh, went to PC fair and bought and external hard disk…ahah!

What I did for my third week eh? Barely nothing…went to Xanax again with Tas, testing our vocals. And we went to Fun Fair..haha! Wait a sec, I think that is during the fourth week. I really can't recall what I did for my third week…erk.

After 1 month, the fifth week I went back home, skip class on Monday. It was a bliss! Then, Monday night head off to Terengganu…hmm, stayed until Wednesday. So I had like extra 3 days of 'holidays'. So that weekend I stay back at Kuantan. Preparing for the exam…prepare ke? Haha

That bring us to the seventh week, and of course I stayed back since we had exam during the weekends.

The eighth week, I went back to my hometown in Terengganu, to spend some time there. After 4 years of studying here, I've always been reluctant to go back to my hometown, sedangkan dekat…Now, I am so regretful!! I suck at keeping in touch, and making an effort for sillaturrahim…damn!

So, total up -

I spent 3 weekends in Kuantan

I spent 1 weekend on top of mountain

I spent 12 days = 4 weekends with my family

Just justifying my priority…

(Apparently this is supposed to be a post before raya, adey dah terlambat almost 1 month)

Craps

2009-08-23T10:04:00.001-07:00

It's either I have so many stories to share or I have nothing to share here.

Anyway, here are some thoughts and points to ponder, also some craps for you to bare with:

1.Just to share thoughts form others, hmm..

"apa gunanya saya memperluaskan kenalan wanita/lelaki saya tanpa kepentingan sedangkan saya hanya milik bakal isteri/suami saya seorang"

2.I' m not into cats, but my siblings are TRUE CAT LOVERS and there are 5 of them:

Black old female cat – 'Mak die'
Black and White male cat - 'Abang die' – anak 'Mak die' dengan suami pertama
Black female cat (still teenager) – Oprah
Black female cat with white dots near the nose(same age as Oprah) – Cindy Crawford
Black small kitten ( same age as Oprah and Cindy) – Sindrome

3.It's Ramadhan, and it's great to actually having the 1st breakfast at home.

Our first Ramadhan menu: Roti John (Org Kg Sg Tangkas), Mini Murtabak (Org Kg Sg Tangkas), Bubur Jagung, Fruit Cocktail, Sarsi, and Mexican Bun. – Simple, not heavy,and not so different from my daily Ramadhan menu in Kuantan, BUT, it's great when you are having them with all your family members.2nd Ramadhan menu – will be at Cik Pah's house.

I like my sahur menu at home – again when you are having them at home and 'sambil-sambil tengok tv – NUR KASIH'

1st sahur – Nasi and kuah Rawan…yummm
2nd sahur – Nasi and Ayam Masak Merah yang sangat sedap

My Terawih at Masjid UKM – Ok, the surah x panjang sangat and SANGAT ramai orang, me and my sis keep on changing the saff to ensure that people next to us is not the same person – H1N1 precaution…cam ngarut jek!

Hope this Ramadhan is going to be A TOTAL TURNING POINT and a platform for me to find answers in all my 'PERSOALAN HIDUP' and 'SOALAN MID SEM'.

This may be my last Ramadhan as a student, and I shall cherish all the moment of hardship, sahur and break-fast and many other things because if there is another Ramadhan for me, it would not be the same.. *sigh*

posted monologue

2009-07-14T08:00:00.000-07:00

I hope and deeply wish that my final year in Kulliyyah Of Pharmacy is going to be a BLAST and MEMORABLE one which is going to end up as a PERFECT ENDING, not just for me, but to every single breathing soul in the 5th batch.

We had 3 years and in fact some of us may even have 5 years of knowing each other. We may have a lot of bitter memories in the past 3 years but I do hope that the PERFECT FINAL YEAR shall rub off the sour memory. Maybe in future, we will be laughing as we look back on how we reacted and responded.

This high expectation apart from my 1 week late of registering for the new semester just give the creeps and adrenaline rush as i feel left out. Sometimes, I have doubts upon my batch, and right now, I don’t feel like going back to Kuantan at all. I have the feeling that something is going wrong or is going to be not right. I don’t know, we may look alike, and have the same color of skin and hair, but we never know what lies within, and what do others think and feel about you.

I have been trying to be positive, but the negative thoughts have been running around in my brain. If you think that it’s about academic, you are off beam.What is wrong with me??I hate being so conscious in this case...

Wedding, Marriage, Family

2009-06-21T19:59:00.000-07:00

It’s almost 3 a.m in the morning and I’ve been hopping from

one blog to another,

one photo album to another,

and the current issue now is – WEDDING!

Normally I don’t talk about this topic openly, more often than not, I keep the thought to myself or at least to my close friends..but seeing everybody throwing their ideas, dreams, thoughts about marriage life in this cyber world , makes me want to share mine….because I think mine is different. Here, I shall only share TINY portion of my outlook about WEDDING, MARRIAGE and things related to that.Don't take this seriously, just want to see it in a different angle. :-)

Lately, there have been lots of weddings involving those who are around my age, which make me think what if it’s me! One of the thoughts that cross my mind is FEAR!

1.You are beginning a new life, with someone new and with the families as well and also their lifestyles! You need to adapt to new environment, new people and maybe new lifestyle..and that is scary.

2.You are going to be away from your family, parents and siblings who really understand you and know how to deal with your bad habit… (everyone has one…duhh~) and that thought leaves ‘tarantulas’ in my stomach.

3.Millions of advices about marriage life to be memorized!!Damn I’m bad at learning new thing…what more of making them into habit! :S

4.During the wedding reception, how can you stand the attention, the snapshots,the flashes of the camera, the tease, the dSLR, the anxiety, the make-ups, the nerves and you are the centre of attention……I feel like running away!!! Runaway bride!!!hahaha…funny but true…!

5.Well, InsyaALLAH, you’ll be married to the guy or girl of your dream who loves and care you the most….BUT, the holidays makes me watch lots of SEBUTAN SYARIAH, and hears lots of cases in marriage couples…and that is terrifying! (There is element of exaggeration tau..heh)

6.I think 5 points is enough….don’t want to share so much of my thoughts…haha!

7.The point is…..i’m not mentally prepared to even imagine my marriage life…haha…belom cukup matang kot ~..hey, i'm grateful to be a girl, because if i'm a man, i sure have more FEAR, since i'm going to be a leader of my family where they are going to depend on me!

8.If you are answering this in your UNGS exam, you sure need to include this point – nak betulkan hubungan dengan DIA dulu…. (this thought just crossed my mind as I type this…and that kind of make sense to me)…Oh, I’ve been way to off the right track –how come this thought just crossed my mind??!

As I reread this, I laugh..I think some of them are quite funny…but kind of make sense if you view them that way…haha

p/s: youjusthavetoconsideryourselfluckytobereadingthis!hahahaha

Final Part of 'kuantan-Pos Pantos-Bangi-Terengganu-Gunung Liang,Tanjung Malim'

2009-06-09T09:06:00.000-07:00

Hey there, it has been almost a month since my last post (in fact it’s exactly one month! What a coincidence). I have so many things to blog about:-

1. Mount Liang Expedition
2. International Bamboo Rafting Expedition
3. Community Posting Stories
4. New short true stories for hikers
5. Lesson learnt – Case Study
6. Career Options
7. And many more that I wish to share with others.

Maybe I should write first thing first:-

Mount Liang Expedition (8th – 10th May 2009)

The desire to use my new 40L+ Karrimor hiking bag leads to the decision to join Mount Liang East West Expedition organized by ARC Gombak, which gives me 1001 expectations because this time, most of my friends were not able to join. There were 31 participants that include me, Kak Yani, Hasan (the only people that I know), UIA Gombak students and students from Monash University and UniKL.

8th May 2009 (Friday)

We had to gather at KL central to catch 8.00pm train to Tanjung Malim. The trip was fun as we got the chance to meet Abu Bakar Othman, Malaysian actor (he happened to be in the wrong train, if i'm not mistaken), and he was very funny. We also spent the time playing cards. We finally reached the destination, (Tanjung Malim station was not that bad after all) and had dinner before going to the ‘kaki gunung’. We set up the place simple enough for a few hours of sleep before early hike on the next day.

9th May 2009 (Saturday)

I can’t really recall what time we began our climb, but the tracker had estimated that we shall reach the second base camp by 5 pm. The track most of the time were gentle slopes but as usual, I’ll be among those who were left behind as one by one went past us. Before reaching the second base camp, we came across 2 streams and one tributary. We spent more than 1 hour at the third stream as there were mini waterfalls. The temptation to bathe was so strong that we end up sitting under the waterfall enjoying the free spa!

After that we continue our journey and the track was no longer ‘mendatar’. That is when, I started to breathe heavily. Moreover, after the ‘free spa’, we were all wet and that slows down our pace. Whenever one of us feels tired, we stopped for a while to have a short rest. One of the participants, Ilham offered me and Kak Yani her Red Bull drink. The bottle was very small so I just took one sip of the Red Bull. Believe it or not, after that, we had like an energy boost as we climbed non-stop for quite some time! We were like Red Bulls..! I was so surprised with myself. However, towards the end, I was panting heavily and my pace was extremely slow. We finally reached the second base camp at 3.45pm and that was early than estimated! The second base camp was very cold and foggy, which is perfect for a good sleep. That night, the Monash students set up campfire and we gather around for Taaruf session.

10th May 2009 (Sunday)

We woke up as early as 5 am so that we can start climbing early and reach the summit before the sunrise. One of us had brought along his SLR camera to capture the beauty of ALLAH’s creation during the sunrise. Having that as the driving force, we climbed non-stop with a quicker pace, It was not as tiring as the previous day but it was dark, and that was the challenge. However, we were disappointed because we did not make it to the summit before the sunrise. By the time we reached the East Summit, it was already bright. But, that did not stop us from taking photos..say KONICA! The distance from East to West Summit was not far, only 5 minutes long. But I and Kak Yani took almost half an hour as we were mesmerized by beautiful wild flowers, and magnificent spider webs! MasyaALLAH.

The west summit however was surrounded by tall trees which prevent us from enjoying the view. Not like the East summit whereby the view was magnificent. We can see range of mountains and hills at different tone of colour. Everything on the land seems very tiny. I’m not sure if I am exaggerating, but this may be the best summit view ever compared to Irau (maybe because of the fog), Senyum, and Stong. For your information, the height of Mount Liang is roughly around 6000+ ft (which is slightly lower than Puncak Irau). I don’t really know how to put this right; I had the chance to perform subuh prayer at the summit (take note that we reach there after sunrise). Opinions from you guys needed here!

Around 9 a.m we start moving down to the base camp. The pace was much faster and it was fun especially when we had episodes of ‘shuffle’ haha. We reach the ‘kaki gunung’ around 5 pm and clean up before go back home.

Well, personally I enjoyed this expedition and everybody was being very nice and friendly, funny and crazy too, they bring along 'the moon' flag everywhere! In fact, they are super helpful.To name all, there is 31 of them! Special thanks to Hasan for lending me his strong stamina to carry along my sleeping bag, my sweater and my water bottle, and also Kak Yani for slowing down her pace for me and Ilham for her Red Bull!

Kuantan– Pos Pantos, Kuala Lipis – Bangi –Terengganu – Gunung Liang

2009-05-10T21:39:00.000-07:00

Date : 11th May 2009, Monday
Venue : Berisi Cafe, Medan MARA
Time : 8.41 a.m (Kedai tak bukak lagi, so to kill the time, nak update blog)

The heavenly holidays actually begins on the 19th of April 2009, which is 2 days before Community Service & Health Screening for Aborigines (COHSAS) at Pos Pantos, Kuala Lipis, Pahang. That 2 days, we spent by shopping and preparing for the program. We shopped at Eng Hong till we almost dropped, (of course when you have like almost 5 trolleys FULL at the cashier!). Applying some of the practical done during our first year, we also had done some packaging of tablets and creams and syrups to be distributed to the aborigines as well as clothes for donation.

Our journey to Pos Pantos was fun and full of laughter. On the way to Pos Pantos, we dropped by at Hafiz Yunos’s house for lunch and a taste of kek lapis Sarawak. It was mouth watering and we even bought the cake for ourselves. Thanks Hafiz! Before we continue our journey, we were shocked by a minor accident where the bus was doing a 3 point turn, and hit the road and damage the lower front of the bus. But, with the help of ‘orang kampung’, the bus finally managed to get back to the main road.

We spent 3 days at Pos Pantos doing lots of activities. We COOKED for the villagers for the 3 whole days! It was a good thing for both sides because, the chefs (those who can cooked confidently and skilfully) can teach people who is less skillfull like me and at the same time, everyone ‘kenyang perut!’ I shall say, since the first COHSAS, the best place to ‘lepak’ is near the stove!

(Oopps, have to get moving, need to go to Princecourt)

Time : 11.00 a.m.
Venue : Day Care Center for Endoscopy and Uroscopy
Status : nak jalan2, tapi ngantuk, sakit kaki and sakit belakang, dan nak kena

bawak laptop pulak....so sambung blog

Besides, we also had done some health screening, visit to the school, fard ain class, games, karaoke ;p , movies, and cool demonstration! We distributed the over the counter (OTC) medicines to the aborigines and I was in charge for counselling. That’s when I realised how shallow my knowledge is! Takutnye~ But everything went on smoothly, and the aborigines were witty, sporting and can be sarcastically funny too. Some of them have good sense of humour. The kids were the best, most sporting and they have graceful harmonious voice! They love to sing Matahari and we were amazed. That’s when we came out with the idea to have a karaoke session! The kids also had done performance during the opening ceremony.

Well, we also had demonstration by the aborigines on how to make crafts using ‘daun pinang’. It was easy, and we had all the fun taking pictures with the leaf crown and belt! It was cool. In fact, there was also demonstration on how to cook rice using bamboo. It’s a big diameter bamboo, and on the inside, they put rice wrapped in ‘daun lirih’. There were few ‘bungkus’ of rice in ‘daun lirih’ in the bamboo. Then, they’ll be cooked on fire. The end product looks like ‘nasi timbel’ Indonesia. Sedap jugak.

The evening games was hilarious as we can see the kids seems excited, determined and full of trick to win the ‘baling belon’, ‘cari gula dalam tepung’ and few other games. The women also were all energetic to play ‘boling kelapa’, ‘asingkan rempah’ and few other games. We also have fun playing sumpit belon and watch the men play takraw in sarong.haha

That’s the brief I can tell about COHSAS. There were other activities for da’wah purposes and many more interesting stories. We had so much fun thanks to the crazy committees, wonderful superseniors and my girlfriends who came along to give support.

Just for us to think about :-

The government and society is giving so much help to the aborigines. They even assign an ‘ustaz’ for each village (as i was told lah..). Their rough income is around RM 200-300/month and they seldom eat meat and chicken. But, most of them are heavy smoker, and one of the houses even has a complete television set. Hmmm...

p/s : i'll upload the pictures later, they are not with me (need to have dg cam

fast! ;p)

I HATE CATS.

2009-04-09T22:17:00.001-07:00

Before I begin my emotional entry, I just want to say sorry to all cat lovers, animal lovers and environmentalist out there!

Trust me, before I came to Kuantan, I am not an animal lover, but I don’t hate animals as well. I never hit cats and still never and don’t have the heart to do that. Well, maybe occasionally I do intentionally; kill the ants, and maybe other insects. In fact, sometimes I enjoy playing with the kittens, and the feel of stroking the soft and tender furs is calming. Unfortunately, once I came to Kuantan, there are lots of incident that pissed me of. I had been controlling the urge to post entry about this, out of RESPECT to the cat lovers. But now, respect NO MORE.

Here is the story:-

1. It was 1st year, during exam week, it was stressful windy evening, (I don’t remember what subject I was studying), I went out of the room and suddenly, I realized that, ‘someone’ had peed in front of the door! Let me tell you, it’s not like one drop of urine, it’s more than enough to fill 100 vials! Imagine…Pissed off, but since it’s exam week, so I just clean them out without complaining loudly hoping that ALLAH will reward me in the exam hall.

2. It was Thursday night, the night before going to Perak for McLEAD. It was a tiring day as we just had our Industrial Tabletting practical and my group was the last one to finish. I have to pack up for McLEAD, but I decided to take a short nap because I was exhausted. That is when I realized that my bed is wet. ‘Pelik’ but I was too tired to check and just assume that it’s just ‘air biase’ when I realized that it was not just wet, it’s warm wet ( I don’t have the adjective to describe it). ‘Tak jadi nak tidor’ I check my bed and OMG, they stinks!! ‘KUCING KENCING LAGI!!!’.It’s like almost half of my bed! Extremely pissed of, I decided to wash my whole compartment and the foyer in front, I bring out all the shelves, and I WASH THEM! I was lucky to have Jijah and Atiq to ‘layan’ me. Thanks you guys *hugs*

3. This time, it’s just one of the boring and tiring days, I just got back from the class, put my bag, and went to the toilet and I forgot to close the door. When I came back, there was a fluffy cute cat on my table. I wasn’t in a bad mood, so I chase the cat out nicely and with love..haha! Only then I realized that ‘die kecing atas meja study aku and berjejeran atas lantai!’ I was so pissed of until I cried….sambil membersihkan bilik….DAMN!!!!

4. Today, after so long, again it happens. This morning, struggling to revise for MCQ, I went out, put on my shoe and…I smell the MOST UNPLEASANT SMELL EVER, STINKS AND IT SUFFOCATES ME. They had activated my anger receptor. Along the way to KOM, I just can’t read the notes anymore, I keep thinking about the smell and the CATS. Only when we got back, me and awe realized that, ‘kucing berak!!!’ in our laundry pail!!!

5. These are the incident that I will never forget. Banyak lagi, kes kucing kencing, berak, curi makanan.

Let’s go straight to the lesson of the day:

1. Mulianya hati pencinta binatang, banyak pahala diorang sebab membela binatang ni memang menguji kesabaran.

2. Tapi alangkah sayangnye, pahala yang kita dapat tu, di tolak pulak dengan dosa yang kite buat. Dosa?

a. Makcik2 cleaner yang saban hari terpakse membersihkan najis kucing, kesian diorang. If I were the makcik, berbakul2 sumpah seranah dah…tak pasal2 dapat dosa kering, sebab kita yang saying kucing and suka bagi makan, orang lain dosa sbb banyak sgt mencarut sebab terpaksa membersihkan hasil pencernaan kucing ke atas makanan yang kita kasi tu.

b. Bayangkan, kalau kite terpijak dan x perasan, pastu buat sembahyang pulak…..apekah itu? Tak tau la kot2 ade hujah dan pendapat pasal tu…

c. Mungkin kita boleh sabar, tapi kite kena consider masyarakat di sekeliling. Take responsibility of your action. How?

i. You love the cat, and you want the cat to in the mahallah, you feed them
(always or occasionally) in the pantry, the cats will start to feel
comfortable and feel free to ‘ berak and kencing merata-rata kat mahallah,
so be ready to clean them!!!

ii. If you don’t want to clean them, please, kalau nak bagi makan, make sure you
are far away from mahallah.

iii. Or, if you really love them, send all the cats to SPCA or any agencies.
They’ll take a really good care of the cats

iv. LOVING CATS IS NOT JUST BY FEEDING THEM.

CONCLUSION:

I don’t know what you’ll think of me when you read this, but this is how I feel right now and I want you to know. I am terribly sorry to my friends who are cat lovers..SORRY GUYS. I hope that one day; ALLAH will grant me a heart like you guys. Now, my love towards cats had vanished. Sorry sume2 yang syg kucing . AKU MOHON MAAF IKHLAS DARI HATI….

Why do I blog?

2009-04-01T13:09:00.000-07:00

Well, currently studying clinical pharmacy, but as usual, i'm distracted with the high speed internet right now, and unfortunately, i'm stuck reading people's blog.

I have been thinking, why do actually people blog? But i don't have the time to do some research, so here is the inconcrete reason i have figured out :-

1. If you are not careful enough, you can be arrested in ISA! - that shows the impact of blog

2. Most reporters have their own blog - they can express more freely, no edit-edit, it's all in their control (BUT, with etiqques of course!)

3. People do blog, to gain money! That's creative...

4. Our leaders have their own blog. Check out che det's - this is where they spill out and share their brains, thinkings, view, comments with normal people like us!

5. Some people do it for dakwah - From the ustaz....to the students - make sure jage niat tu!

6. Some to share info and as an effort to unite people -- check out MyPSA blogspot

7. Some just love to write - they will write poems, stories, riddles, and other creative entries

8. Some people blogs on what they do, their activities...this is good actually, we'll learn to appreciate every single moment of our life ---> more as a memoir... people will know their recent updates...

9. Some average people (as in not a public figure) just want to express their thoughts, ideas, emotion, disagreement, point of view, interest and many more

10. Some just love to write on comtroversial issue....

AND MANY MORE REASON, which, i don't feel like including....10 is enough already..

CONCLUSION / MY POINT IS --->
some of us may not agree with the reasons of blogging.
Some expression such as ' come on, your blog bores me, it's not fun at all' , or ' omg, he actually tells every single thing about his life,puh-leaaase', ' what's the point of posting such entries!' , ....

That shows, that every people has their own purpose and reason for blogging and we have to RESPECT that! There is no one definite purpose of blogging...Different reason for different people...

p/s : As for me, i seldom update.Previously, in my friendster blog, the posts are mostly on what i do, or what happen to me...usually i post what i feel like writing (or typing)..

This semester, many things happen that make me do a lot of thinking; which makes me feel like posting more on what i think rather than what i do.... *long sigh* ... (padahal baru 4 post je...hahahahaha)

Edited version of 'Daerah' - Daerah Aku

2009-02-22T11:33:00.000-08:00

I'm not talented of making poems, so i edited 'Daerah Ini' to make them more ME....haha

Mereka kata:
kau akan sayu di daerah itu,
jawapanku: Aku selalu bersama tuhanku
kupasrah padaNYA,sehening tiupan salju
kernaNYA aku rasa jitu dan mampu melebihi manusia beribu

Daerah ini daerah tenang, sekalipun ada yang kata outdated
Daerah ini daerah damai, sekalipun sukar untuk sampai
Daerah ini daerah merdeka, sekalipun ada yang mengejeknya
Biarkan saja aku di daerah ini

Kata mereka : daerah kau itu jauh
Jawab ku : pada Tuhan aku bersauh kukuh
Yang jauh itu jiwa yang mungkir
Padaku daerah ini amat hampir

Kata mereka : daerah kau itu sepi
Jawab ku : Aku tidak pernah sunyi dengan alunan murni
Yang sepi itu jiwa yang inginkan pujian dan belaian kasih mesra
Padaku cukuplah dengan irama keredhaan Tuhan

Daerahku ini daerah berpendirian, berpaksikan firman Tuhan
Bukan ikut trend, bukan ikut kawan, bukan ikut sorakan atau tepukan
Daerah ini tidak pernah peduli
Apa kata orang sekeliling

Biarkan saja aku di daerah ini
Sekalipun ada yang tak gemari
Biarkan saja aku di daerah ini
Sendiri membawa diri dan sanubari

Biarkan saja aku di daerah ini
Kerna aku mengerti, ia amat suci dan abadi

I am happy of what i am right now, no regret of being among the minority ~ if you know what i mean

Getting Rid of Pain :-'(

2009-02-19T18:36:00.000-08:00

Body System: Central Nervous System - Pain and Opioid Analgesic - Dr. Bala

This is the lecture which I spent most of the time by dozing off..Zzzzzz. Even when I tried to listen back to the recorded lecture, I fell asleep after the first 15 minutes..and wake up on the next day! How sedative…! Well, he spent exactly 58 minutes and 48 seconds (how accurate is that!) talking about Pain and their Killers! (Hey, it’s not violent!)

Do you guys know that in war, whenever our soldiers were SEVERELY injured, they seem to tolerate with the pain?

This is because, they have their own inner PAIN KILLER inside their body. But, this particular assassin will not kill the pain unless they (the pain sensation) are TERRIBLE! (kire diorang tak main la kalau setakat sakit sikit). So, don’t expect that when you accidentally cut your hand, you will not feel the pain, because this painkiller acts only if the pain is extremely severe.

Who is this high class assassin? –They are – ENDOGENOUS OPIOID PEPTIDES a.k.a EOP

* to be precise, they don’t actually KILL the pain, but rather CONTROL them

Well, maybe some family history of this brutal murder, EOP?

EOP has his own followers who claimed and proud to be part of the pain mafia. They tried to be different and distinctive, with their weird names – ENDORPHIN, ENKEPHALIN, DYNORPHINE… They think it’s brutal –do you think so??

* That is why today, we can see many EOP wannabes out there in the market (should I say blackmarket?) . They are all not original, not natural…all are SYNTHETIC. But hey! They are willing to kill even minor pain! Have you heard of morphine and codeine? They are among the SYNTHETIC OPIOIDS. Just for your information, there are also semisynthetic opioids (But, we’ll just talk about them later…)

How on earth they can actually reduce and kill the pain???

Well these pain killers either synthetic or EOP, actually kills the pain with the aid of a thing call THE RECEPTOR. There are 3 types of receptors known as Mrs. Mew ( µ ), Mr. Kappa and their son called Delta. Easy to say that these special assassins (EOP and their synthetics) serve as the key to unlock these receptor so that sneak in and GET RID OF THE PAIN!

*For your information THE RECEPTOR are a good friend of G- Protein and his girlfriend, Adenylyl Cyclase. Only one person who will always feel down seeing G-Protein and Adenylyl Cyclase together, she is --> cAMP, G- Protein’ s ex- wife.

So, after they ‘unlock’ the Mew ( µ ), Mr. Kappa and Delta, what happened?

This is the difficult part – (lesson : never sleep during the lecture!). Before we know how they kill the pain, we need to have a brief idea about the thing we hated most : PAIN SENSATION !

Situation 1 : You were running down the stairs and suddenly tripped your leg and fell down about 23 flight of steps. Unluckily, your leg hit hardly on shattered glass of the broken crystal vase you were carrying.

The injured leg will actually try to share what happen with other part of your body. The first person who will receive the news is THE AFFERENT NOCICEPTOR, being a gossip girl; she will spread the news with the aid of 2 ‘radio’ channels which are Calcium channel fm and Potassium Channel fm to the SPINAL CORD who is closely related to the BRAIN. Well, when the Big Boss Brain get to know the accident, he will get mad and -- ouch! Here comes the pain sensation!

The road to the Brain from AFFERENT NOCICEPTOR is the Sensory Fiber Lane, Dorsal Horn Junction, Ascending Spinal Pathway and the Thalamus road.

So, what the painkiller did was, they unlock Mrs. Mew and her family --> and block the Calcium channel fm --> reduce the information reaching the spinal cord. They also will open more Potassium Channel fm which will make the spinal cord unable to tell the Brain what happen. If the Big Boss Brain doesn’t know, then we won’t feel the pain!

Censored : Precursor of EOP , Apo – Morphine, Activity and Selectivity of THE RECEPTOR, supraspinal & spinal analgesia, sources, physiological and pharmacological effect

Hardship is man's best friend

2009-02-13T10:39:00.000-08:00

You may not agree with me, but I strongly believe that, hardship is man’s best friend. We may not realize, but it is due to the hardship, we dare to dream big. Whenever we are in a ‘comfort-zone’, we have no ‘true friend’ to challenge us to achieve more and obtain a better ‘comfort-zone’. Hence, hardships don’t only make us want to dream big, but they also are the one who make us recognize of our mistakes and sins.

The best example is our beloved prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h who had faced countless trials and tribulations just to spread the teachings of Islam worldwide. He was hated, isolated at one time, and even had faced murder attempts. But, he never hates the hardship confronted. Today, the population of Muslim world wide has reached to 1.81 billion in year 2007. In fact, we used to have great Muslim empires such as during the Uthmaniyyah and Abassiyyah ruling. Nevertheless, the golden era Muslim is already a history. Hopefully, this millennium Muslim’s hardship may once again bring us back to the golden era.

I read a simple biography of our past prime minister, Dr. Mahathir Mohamed. He actually had to deal with loads of difficulties and other hardships. During his life as a medical student, they need to commute from one place to another by a lorry just to have a laboratory practical. The hardship he had faced before our independence makes him dare to dream big which is to develop the nation. I believe that, this also applies to other Malaysian leaders.

Isaac Newton, described as pathologically disable for even a small conversation had a miserable childhood life. But, today he is one of the world greatest scientists who came up with such a basic yet important theory of gravity and law of motion. Albert Einstein who was a college dropout had come out with theory of relativity and other important findings. Same goes with Stephen Hawking who suffers from a disturbing health condition, did not have a good career beginning. This however, did not prevent him from becoming one of the world known scientists.

If you read or come across with other public figures or any other successful person, we will see that they had faced many hardships during their earlier days. The second richest Asian women in United Kingdom used to sell ‘samosa’ from house to house. Today, she has her own factory to supply her own ready made curry to whole United Kingdom.

It is up to us to describe happiness, success and achievements. They vary in individuals and we have to respect that.

At one point of our life,when we are so happy and content, we may forget and neglect our best friend -> hardship.

When suddenly ‘they’ come by and say hi to us; we should actually think back of what we have done. Maybe ‘they’ want us to realize, recover and achieve more.

So, in whatever state you are in, never ever forget or even hate our true friend ->hardship. Then, we will always be a better and stronger person, to survive in the world with endless challenges, so that ultimately, we can be happy in the hereafter.